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Yet another long absence for me.

Im on holidays now but ive been spending it with my family, cleaning up my grandpa's house. He passed away in hopsital, my mum was alone with him when it happened. She recounted the whole thing to me in full detail. Terrifying. Im glad he wasnt alone.

We knew he had 6 months left, cancer, so it wasnt unexpected, but it hasnt made it any less hard.

I got 3 gold rings to remember my grandmother by, and i asked to keep my grandfathers embalming album, full of old eighties photos of the deceased in various horrific states. And then the after photos of them laying peaceful and fixed up. I found it once as a child and found it fascinating.

All of a sudden my world is turned upside down, all my fears and doubts of my life and myself have sprung back up, im taking it as it comes and trying to keep a bright outlook on my future. But feeling a little lost.

My words arent coming out right.

I hope everyone is well and not too full of chocolate after easter.

Love to you all.

<3 Eesh.