_fidelio

so i have many smarties. having many smarties wont quell the circular stimuli (rather my reaction to) generated in our home. in case you hadnt noticed, im not nearly as brilliant, not nearly as competent an interpretor as i may have led you to thinking. the simple truth is that try as i may i havent the faintest clue how to respond to you in a way that will please you apart perhaps from just leaving you to your silence, leaving you to the solitude you seem hell bent on securing for yourself. the other side of it is the truth that the longer i distance myself, the longer i ignore you the more difficult it is to come back to loving you.