_felix_

I guess what really bums me out is that he's just not ready for me. All the right elements are there, it's got all the potential in the world but I'm just about 6 months too early for him. If I can relax and be patient, I just might get what I want. but I've never been very good at either.

I look forward to the day when for once, the timing is just right.

Also I'm fairly sick of greedy capitalist asshole fucks. which means that as long as I'm working in finance, I'll never be truly happy. When am I going to grow the balls to get up off my ass and find something new...something I don't have anxiety attacks over everyday on the way to work? when am I going to DEAL with that ugliness? I need to face the fact that I'm lazy and still don't believe in myself.

My mondays are ALWAYS filled with disatisfaction.

and seriously...I hate this new layout...you guys like it?