_fatalist

I know I don't write much in here. I'm sorry for that. But not much is really going on with my life, sadly.

I feel like I'm coming to terms with things. Well, more a numb state if anything. I have no clue what I'm going to talk about with the "shrink" tomorrow. Hmm.

I have a lot of photography that I need to do. I wish a lot of you were closer, so I could either shoot you, or at least have your company while I shoot. Its really hitting hard lately how lonely I am. The only friend I have is 600 miles away and is my Ex. To hear her gush about her happiness etc. just kills me sometimes. I envy and am jealous of that. And of her new man. It just makes me sad that I no longer have her in my life. That I'll probably never see her again.

Anyways.

I woke up this morning with a migraine. I did something stupid before class yesterday, and that was getting a Venti Quad shot Vanilla Latte. So, yep. Me being my age, I had a caffiene hangover this morning. First thing I did after getting up and peeing, was grabbed the nearest caffienated source, that being a Pepsi, and drank that with 3 ibuprofens. If you know me at all, and none of you do, I rarely ever drink soda's. I guess I dont like the bubbles. Call me weird.

I need to get a haircut. I am pondering doing this myself, or going somewhere to get it done. I dont particulary want to shell out the money, but its getting too long. I'd do it right now if I wasnt tired.

Well, goodnight.