I really feel like hell right now.
Everyday I wake up intending it to be a new day and starting fresh. I try to will myself to be happy. But it just doesnt come. Its just not the same.
Today I got up after smacking the snooze button a million times. I go to the bathroom to cough. I get my nose explosion. After a few days of not happening, i get one. I sat there dripping into the toilet hoping that I'd get an aneurysm or something and keel over. But no. I just drip for about 30 mins. Dont know or care as to how much blood I lost. Its not from high blood pressure either. Just sinus pressure from being sick and a constantly reinjured something in my nose.
I tried to read through Becky's post. But it made me sad, and I had to stop.
somebody save me from this hell
Everyday I wake up intending it to be a new day and starting fresh. I try to will myself to be happy. But it just doesnt come. Its just not the same.
Today I got up after smacking the snooze button a million times. I go to the bathroom to cough. I get my nose explosion. After a few days of not happening, i get one. I sat there dripping into the toilet hoping that I'd get an aneurysm or something and keel over. But no. I just drip for about 30 mins. Dont know or care as to how much blood I lost. Its not from high blood pressure either. Just sinus pressure from being sick and a constantly reinjured something in my nose.
I tried to read through Becky's post. But it made me sad, and I had to stop.
somebody save me from this hell
Try some or all of these, maybe it'll help. If nothing else, it'll get your mind off of being depressed and on to something else, and even if you don't end up on top of the mountain, it's better than allowing yourself to continue to focus on being depressed, which never helps anyone. Well, I suppose it's okay for a little while, hehe.
And bummer about the bloody nose... maybe a visit to the doc could help? I suspect weather change too... I used to get bloody noses and bad migraine headaches in the fall.