Friday Oct 06, 2006

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Oktoberfest starts today in the downtown village. I think im gonna hit that up and take lots of pics for my class. Should be fun.
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craftygrrl:
Dude, you hate me don't you? frown You better not... I'll have to come down to Cali and knock some damn sense into you! blackeyed
_fatalist:
Nope, dont hate. Just dont like it when the populars are in there.

Tuesday Oct 03, 2006

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Yup this is pretty much me.

Assemblage 23 - Cocoon

Even though I know it's only chemical
These peaks and valleys are beginning to take their toll
Try to convince myself that all it takes is time
But the most derisive voice I hear is mine

It opens all the scars on me
It leaves me shaken in my belief
It takes my hand just...
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Tuesday Oct 03, 2006

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I know ive said this before, but this time i mean it. No more chat for a while. Its so, i dunno, high school in there sometimes. If you're not cute or dont have a webcam, or if you have a webcam and arent cute, then you pretty much get ignored.

So count me in with the "have cam, not cute enough" category.

Tired of...
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Saturday Sep 30, 2006

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i hate being sick. Bronchitus and a sinus infection hand in hand. I have amoxicillin and an albutorol inhaler. Fun.

Today, I've been taking my st. johns like a mofo. Hoping that every so many hours when i take 2, that it subdues my sadness, anger, hate, whatever. I feel a sort of middleground right now, but still angry. I feel for whatever reason a...
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Friday Sep 29, 2006

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I think i'm gonna take a break from chat for a while. Not feelin it, or the clique-ish atmosphere.

Ya'll know where I am to get ahold of me.

Thursday Sep 28, 2006

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I really feel like hell right now.
Everyday I wake up intending it to be a new day and starting fresh. I try to will myself to be happy. But it just doesnt come. Its just not the same.

Today I got up after smacking the snooze button a million times. I go to the bathroom to cough. I get my nose explosion. After a...
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hossenfeffah:
Look at more pics of happy nude women. Avoid emo. Go out and buy your favorite dish from your favorite restaurant. Make a concerted effort to be nice to someone when they least expect it, and watch their pleasant reactions.

smile

Try some or all of these, maybe it'll help. If nothing else, it'll get your mind off of being depressed and on to something else, and even if you don't end up on top of the mountain, it's better than allowing yourself to continue to focus on being depressed, which never helps anyone. Well, I suppose it's okay for a little while, hehe. smile

And bummer about the bloody nose... maybe a visit to the doc could help? I suspect weather change too... I used to get bloody noses and bad migraine headaches in the fall.

Monday Sep 25, 2006

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I hate being lonely.

I hate myself mostly. You never know what you truly had untill you screwed it all up and lost it. I'm paying the ultimate price. I just want her to come back to me.

Kill me now.

So tired.
craftygrrl:
frown

Sunday Sep 24, 2006

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Ok, i need to get out of my funk. Its been about 3 months since the breakup. I still love her, and it still hurts to talk to her, but i need to get my head on straight and just move forward. I'm tired of being jobless. I'm tired of being an emotional wreck all the time. I'm tired of being depressed. I'm tired of...
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Monday Aug 28, 2006

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Im really fucking miserable right now. frown
m0ngrel:
*le sigh

Monday Aug 14, 2006

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Sometimes being in love can really fucking suck. frown