The happiest day...
Today is the happiest day I have experienced in a very long time. Today Ali and I kissed.
The touchy flirting has been going on for a few weeks now, getting progressively more sensual seemingly with each passing day. Today as I walked her to her car, she dropped me off at my truck. We just sat there, sharing each other for a few last moments before we departed. She is off tomorrow and I tuesday so we will not see each other for a couple of days. As she sat there with her head on my chest, as I gently caressed her hand with my fingers, she kissed me on the cheek. we said a few more words and she rested on my chest again. As she said, "you should go because I'm not going to let go". Inside... I never wanted her to.
I kissed the back of her hand as I began to step out of the car. She placed her fingers on my chin and pulled me close. As our lips met, it took me almost a full 5 seconds to even realize what was happening. I was frozen to the seat, simply overcome by emotion. As she pushed me away telling me to go, I couldn't even think straight. I was the happiest I have felt in so long. I loved it, I never wanted it to end.
Not a day goes by that I don't think about her.
She truly means the world to me.
As I write this I find myself to be an emotional mess right now. I am so happy for what has happened, I feel like the luckiest guy in the world. At the same time I am petrified. Petrified of what will happen next. I have the potential to have the greatest thing come into my life, yet I am worried sick that I could also have the most devastating pain I have ever felt as well.
For now I try to quiet my fears, and live in the glow of the moment.
Right now, I am truly... happy.
Today is the happiest day I have experienced in a very long time. Today Ali and I kissed.
The touchy flirting has been going on for a few weeks now, getting progressively more sensual seemingly with each passing day. Today as I walked her to her car, she dropped me off at my truck. We just sat there, sharing each other for a few last moments before we departed. She is off tomorrow and I tuesday so we will not see each other for a couple of days. As she sat there with her head on my chest, as I gently caressed her hand with my fingers, she kissed me on the cheek. we said a few more words and she rested on my chest again. As she said, "you should go because I'm not going to let go". Inside... I never wanted her to.
I kissed the back of her hand as I began to step out of the car. She placed her fingers on my chin and pulled me close. As our lips met, it took me almost a full 5 seconds to even realize what was happening. I was frozen to the seat, simply overcome by emotion. As she pushed me away telling me to go, I couldn't even think straight. I was the happiest I have felt in so long. I loved it, I never wanted it to end.
Not a day goes by that I don't think about her.
She truly means the world to me.
As I write this I find myself to be an emotional mess right now. I am so happy for what has happened, I feel like the luckiest guy in the world. At the same time I am petrified. Petrified of what will happen next. I have the potential to have the greatest thing come into my life, yet I am worried sick that I could also have the most devastating pain I have ever felt as well.
For now I try to quiet my fears, and live in the glow of the moment.
Right now, I am truly... happy.