I now reside in Virginia Beach, Va again.
From Portland, Or, I drove 45 hours in less than 3 days. From yesterday to today alone I drove 26 hours straight, only stopping for gas.. Needless to say, I am sore, but happy to be with my mother and sister again.
For those of you that know me well enough to understand my family situation, you know how hard of a change this was for me.
To everyone else, allow me to elaborate. My father loves me (or so he tells everyone that isn't me), only because I am his daughter. With the exception of that simple fact, he essentially hates me. He hates who I am, how I look and the views and beliefs I choose to follow. I moved back home to be closer to my mother in a feeble attempt to help her with some slight depression issues. I am putting myself back into a bad situation, in being near my father again, because I love my mother so much.... and she deserves to be happy.
After not even being home an hour, he is already bullying me, belittling me, and has forced me to tears. It is sad I upset him so much without even saying a word. With only breathing. (Literally... I was sitting at the table and he just started in on me. Completely unprovoked.)
If I can't make my own father proud of me, how the fuck am I supposed to find someone else in life that would accept me and love me?!
Virginia... welcome home, to me.
From Portland, Or, I drove 45 hours in less than 3 days. From yesterday to today alone I drove 26 hours straight, only stopping for gas.. Needless to say, I am sore, but happy to be with my mother and sister again.
For those of you that know me well enough to understand my family situation, you know how hard of a change this was for me.
To everyone else, allow me to elaborate. My father loves me (or so he tells everyone that isn't me), only because I am his daughter. With the exception of that simple fact, he essentially hates me. He hates who I am, how I look and the views and beliefs I choose to follow. I moved back home to be closer to my mother in a feeble attempt to help her with some slight depression issues. I am putting myself back into a bad situation, in being near my father again, because I love my mother so much.... and she deserves to be happy.
After not even being home an hour, he is already bullying me, belittling me, and has forced me to tears. It is sad I upset him so much without even saying a word. With only breathing. (Literally... I was sitting at the table and he just started in on me. Completely unprovoked.)
If I can't make my own father proud of me, how the fuck am I supposed to find someone else in life that would accept me and love me?!
Virginia... welcome home, to me.
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I am proud of you for who you are and everything you have done and most importantly all of the amazing things you will do...
I love you <3