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Last week I went to Blizzcon and met some of my idols, Day[9] & Tasteless, experienced gaming history first hand, and had an amazing time at Disneyland with some great people! While at the convention I received a call that the job I had lined up at Netflix was no longer available. I was pretty hysterical, but got over it when my boss said I could have my job at Apple back. No biggie. Then when I get home my housemate basically told me to get out. The male didn't want my cats in the house when the baby is born in a few weeks. So I no longer had a new job that allowed me to afford to live here on my own and I was about to be homeless. On top of all of this a guy I had a thing for, and basically changed my schedule to revolve around, told me he was no longer interested in me. This sent me over the edge. Depression hit hard and I locked myself in my room for a few days.

Childish? Perhaps. But I know how toxic I can be to others when I am in a bad mood. It was for the common good that I stayed put.

I have been stressing over where to live, where to work and if I should move again to another state. Portland is still in a shit economy and it is near impossible to find a decent job that can pay decently.

Today I decided to be an adult and talk things through with my housemates. They apologized for the harsh behavior of the one housemate, and asked me not to move out. They realized they were being impractical and he was just speaking out of stress and a lack of sleep. They want me to keep the house when they move out in a year or so and couldn't imagine me leaving. They believe me to be a responsible adult and trust me around their new born. The female admitted to viewing me as a little sister and told me how upset she was with her fiance's choice of words with me. She had no idea he asked me to leave and was livid when she heard the news. This made me feel like I had some sense of support in the situation. Even better news yet, one of my fellow Chatters gave me a part time job working for him, from home, so I can not only pay my bills but I can also put some money aside!

I am glad to report that happy Deanna is once again present!