Today I move for the fifth time in three years. Wish me luck!
My life as been a roller coaster of emotions as of late... I have loved every minute of my freedom, but I have been extremely homesick since my puppy left. She was my rock, and I miss her more than I can begin to say. I have made many friends, and I have been on quite a few dates. I have new hobbies, and new hang outs. I have learned a lot and traveled to new places. This move, without a doubt, has been the best decision of my life!
But... I am lonely. I have been searching for someone to cling on to, just to feel adored. I am hoping that moving in with three other people will satisfy this feeling. I wouldn't mind having someone to care about again. In fact, since Danny and I were more roommates than lover for the last two years of our relationship, I have been alone for a long time. There have been a few guys I was seriously interested in. The first used me, of course, and hit me while I was already low. The second has been nothing short of amazing to me! Him, and his roommate, are now my best friends on this coast! I love spending my time with them. However, it is difficult when I am head over heels for him and he has put me in the friend zone. Not just the friend zone, but basically the best friend zone. I am the only person, besides said roommate, to see him and speak with him on a regular basis. So I have been attempting to keep my distance, and failing. Oh boy am I a sucker for a kind word, and for anyone that shows me true sincerity. His roommate is an amazing man as well! They both challenge my mind and, though in the process I feel like a retard, teach me so much!
I suppose I should finish packing now. I get my moving truck in a few hours, and only half of the apartment is boxed up...
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p.s. I would like some advice! particularly on the dating scenario!
My life as been a roller coaster of emotions as of late... I have loved every minute of my freedom, but I have been extremely homesick since my puppy left. She was my rock, and I miss her more than I can begin to say. I have made many friends, and I have been on quite a few dates. I have new hobbies, and new hang outs. I have learned a lot and traveled to new places. This move, without a doubt, has been the best decision of my life!
But... I am lonely. I have been searching for someone to cling on to, just to feel adored. I am hoping that moving in with three other people will satisfy this feeling. I wouldn't mind having someone to care about again. In fact, since Danny and I were more roommates than lover for the last two years of our relationship, I have been alone for a long time. There have been a few guys I was seriously interested in. The first used me, of course, and hit me while I was already low. The second has been nothing short of amazing to me! Him, and his roommate, are now my best friends on this coast! I love spending my time with them. However, it is difficult when I am head over heels for him and he has put me in the friend zone. Not just the friend zone, but basically the best friend zone. I am the only person, besides said roommate, to see him and speak with him on a regular basis. So I have been attempting to keep my distance, and failing. Oh boy am I a sucker for a kind word, and for anyone that shows me true sincerity. His roommate is an amazing man as well! They both challenge my mind and, though in the process I feel like a retard, teach me so much!
I suppose I should finish packing now. I get my moving truck in a few hours, and only half of the apartment is boxed up...
<3
p.s. I would like some advice! particularly on the dating scenario!
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Good luck with the new place.