Saturday Oct 17, 2009

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why do we all have to die?




r.i.p. Kyle.




edit:
im honestly scared shitless. one second they are there, the next theyre gone. what if you never got to say everything you wanted? what if there were still so many other things you wanted to do with them? memories to make and good times to be had! bad as well, but still, experiences none the less!
i feel like a fucking nut case! am i really the only one so terrified by death!!!
what will i do with myself when my parents pass? or even my little sister or my fiance! i dont take this type of news very well.... at all. i cant eat or sleep. i lay there thinking too much, and getting sick over something i have "no control over".
im selfish in the fact that i can only hope i die before my loved ones. i dont know how to live without them. i am not so sure i can pull myself out of that depression.
most of you saw me after my grandfather. seeing him dead on my floor. im still fucked up from that. i really dont know how much more of this i can take.

and this isnt me being emo. this is me pouring my heart out to a god damn internet community.
fallenglory:
sweetie, it's never easy. i was fucked up for well over a year after my mom passed away. i still get emotional, but it gets easier. try to be hapy for the time that you had with them, rather than wishing you had more.

love you.

xoxo

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