_dallas_

i stare into the shadows and let my mind wander. reminiscing of the times when life was good. when it wasn't a chore to smile. when it wasn't a rare task to laugh. when company wasn't so hard to find. i think about when he would hold me, and i would stare into his eyes. i remember his touch, his scent, the way the corners of his mouth would curl when he was most content. i relive those moments, as pure and real as if he were still holding me. protecting me. in the dark room i cuddle into the sheets, rocking myself to sleep. swaying away the pain in hopes of sweet dreams. soon i will wake to the light, allowing the sun to blind out my sorrows. at least for the day these pleasant memories can't cause me harm. for when the sky is blue i am far too busy to daydream and cry. i must save my hardships for when the moon is high.

it is safe to be sad when the shadows embrace me, as i drift away.
it is safe to be lonely at night.