_chris_

Don't want to assume that my situation is anything like yours (I hate people who think that their problems are always worse than everyone else's) but I have days like that too. Days when you know that you are not good enough, that no one will ever need you as much as you need them, that EVERYTHING seems like too much effort. I am super conscious of the depressive streak that runs in my family so when I am feeling that way I try to make a concentrated effort to pull myself out of it because it is far too easy to just let things get worse and worse. Read a book you love (Perfume!), listen to a song that is so beautiful you can't hear it without tears, anything that reminds you that the world isn't ALWAYS such a shitty place to be...
Venting is what we are here for.

it's all good.
i'm fucking annoyingly emo all the time.
not good....
you need a bitch dude.
and if you're too shy to talk to her face to face -
how much is a sg one month account?
maybe you could give her a one month account
and just slightly push her towards your journal.
and let her read the shit you've written about her.
but a few posts down. but still visible.
so it's not obvious :-P
don't throw it in for your insecurities.

take care.