Fuck it. Ill just say it. Im depressed. I feel lonely. I feel so misunderstood. I feel taken advantage of. I feel ashamed because most of the time I know it, but I disregard it just so I can pretend my friends/family are genuine.
Im beginning to just not care anymore. Im becoming reckless. I just want to have real people in my life, love. Happiness. Im starting to feel like thats just not in the cards for me.
Ive never, ever TRULY felt this alone in my life. Its a terrible, empty, lost feeling.
I guess all I can do is continue to chase the careless feeling. Its the only thing that takes away the pain.
Im beginning to just not care anymore. Im becoming reckless. I just want to have real people in my life, love. Happiness. Im starting to feel like thats just not in the cards for me.
Ive never, ever TRULY felt this alone in my life. Its a terrible, empty, lost feeling.
I guess all I can do is continue to chase the careless feeling. Its the only thing that takes away the pain.
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texaspsych:
I am so sorry that you are feeling like that. feeling alone is horrible. It gets you feeling so bad that you start to push people away thus making yourself even lonelier.
cdub54:
i am sorry you feel that way as well fuck i know exactly what you mean though im over seas and its christmas eve never felt so alone in my life but just gotta keep my mind right and be ready for the good things in life to come hope everything gets better for you lil lady.