UPDATED 3/20!!!
TOTALLY STOKED.
So I was worried about Biancas birthday this weekend... (She'll be 2 already!!) ... her dumb ass dad has been trying to see her again. I let him see her for Christmas and haven't heard from him since. He brought his tweeker ass girlfriend over with him. Not a smart thing to do when trying to win my trust back
. Anyways, I found a picture his retarded girlfriend posted of him smoking dope on myspace. TOTALLY SMART DUDE. Now I have reason AND proof for him to not be invited. If he's got a problem, I'll gladly go to court. Sound good? Totally. 
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Not to mention, the boy will be leaving for tour soon.... Trying my best to show him that I'm 100% supportive. My nervousness I guess is showing otherwise, because he doesn't feel I support him. I'm just gonna miss him is all. I'm so used to sleeping next to him, feeling safe in our apartment with him here. I mean just knowing he's going on the road, with two single musicians, one that's married AND has a girlfriend (which both women are OK with) it's just kind of uncomfortable for me to just be like, "yeah dude! No problemo! Not a single worry!" If any woman knows, it doesn't matter how much you trust your man, certain thoughts are GOING to cross your mind. My only fear is not having enough things to do while he's gone and letting those mere thoughts consume me. Not to mention his whole attitude seems to change when he's with the new band. Like I'm beneath him. Beneath them. I don't know. I hate to sound so whiney but hey- I gotta vent somewhere right? I'm sure those aren't his intentions at all, but way to make me feel like an insuficient girlfriend
. I really am doing my best.... It's just his first tour, our first tour together and I HATE HATE HATE when he's in rockstar mode. Only because he tends to treat me like a fan, or just some chick. Yes, true I am a huge fan of the music, but I've also been with him throughout a shit ton of his journey to getting where he is. None of those guys can say that.
EDIT: Things are going way better... we've been talking about things here and there, and the more we prepare ourselves, the more comfortable it's getting. It feels good to being back to super STOKED for them than worrying overpowering any other feeling.
So we're engaged. It just kinda happened. He bought me a cute promise ring for Valentine's day (well that was our excuse anyway) and it means the world to me. We have intentions on getting married, just not tomorrow. There was no classic romantic proposal (what girl doesn't want that?) but hey- we're happy. I have to admit, but a part of me kind of wishes we'd just get married before left. It'd take SO MUCH of the weight off my shoulders. But I suppose it'd be rushed, and not well thoughout. /le sigh. Fucking rockstars.
Here's their link anyways... Murder FM. They're hitting California and then doing a Texas run.... see if they'll be near you.. it'd be dope if you could go check em out
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And because I just can't wait until 420...
TOTALLY STOKED.
So I was worried about Biancas birthday this weekend... (She'll be 2 already!!) ... her dumb ass dad has been trying to see her again. I let him see her for Christmas and haven't heard from him since. He brought his tweeker ass girlfriend over with him. Not a smart thing to do when trying to win my trust back
. Anyways, I found a picture his retarded girlfriend posted of him smoking dope on myspace. TOTALLY SMART DUDE. Now I have reason AND proof for him to not be invited. If he's got a problem, I'll gladly go to court. Sound good? Totally. *****
Not to mention, the boy will be leaving for tour soon.... Trying my best to show him that I'm 100% supportive. My nervousness I guess is showing otherwise, because he doesn't feel I support him. I'm just gonna miss him is all. I'm so used to sleeping next to him, feeling safe in our apartment with him here. I mean just knowing he's going on the road, with two single musicians, one that's married AND has a girlfriend (which both women are OK with) it's just kind of uncomfortable for me to just be like, "yeah dude! No problemo! Not a single worry!" If any woman knows, it doesn't matter how much you trust your man, certain thoughts are GOING to cross your mind. My only fear is not having enough things to do while he's gone and letting those mere thoughts consume me. Not to mention his whole attitude seems to change when he's with the new band. Like I'm beneath him. Beneath them. I don't know. I hate to sound so whiney but hey- I gotta vent somewhere right? I'm sure those aren't his intentions at all, but way to make me feel like an insuficient girlfriend
. I really am doing my best.... It's just his first tour, our first tour together and I HATE HATE HATE when he's in rockstar mode. Only because he tends to treat me like a fan, or just some chick. Yes, true I am a huge fan of the music, but I've also been with him throughout a shit ton of his journey to getting where he is. None of those guys can say that.EDIT: Things are going way better... we've been talking about things here and there, and the more we prepare ourselves, the more comfortable it's getting. It feels good to being back to super STOKED for them than worrying overpowering any other feeling.
So we're engaged. It just kinda happened. He bought me a cute promise ring for Valentine's day (well that was our excuse anyway) and it means the world to me. We have intentions on getting married, just not tomorrow. There was no classic romantic proposal (what girl doesn't want that?) but hey- we're happy. I have to admit, but a part of me kind of wishes we'd just get married before left. It'd take SO MUCH of the weight off my shoulders. But I suppose it'd be rushed, and not well thoughout. /le sigh. Fucking rockstars.
Here's their link anyways... Murder FM. They're hitting California and then doing a Texas run.... see if they'll be near you.. it'd be dope if you could go check em out
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And because I just can't wait until 420...
Have a nice day.
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