So I'm trying really hard not to stress right now. My pops got a loan or something to help catch us up on some bills, and to finally pay off my fines and court fees from when I got arrested (what would I do without him). It's like $900 left or something. BUT because I'm still on probation, I stil have to pay $60 a month to the probation office. In other words I gotta pay them for their supervision. I am behind around a grand I think.
We're trying to get me off early, my probation officer had explained to me that since I've already taken all the classes ect all I had to do was pay off my fines, catch up on my probation fees and get on it w my community service. Then I can request to go to court, get a cheap attorney to represent me and I can get an early release. Save around $2000.
So it's pretty obvious, I'm not gonna be able to work for a while, being that I'm about to have a baby real soon. And there is no way I am gonna put a newborn in day care. I just wanna get over this probation thing so bad, and move on w my life. Mostly move out of El Paso. You can't get anywhere in life here. It's really hard.
I don't mind having to see a PO every month, nor do I mind giving UAs, which is usually why people bitch about being on probation. I'm more concerned w the fines and the fact that if my PO wants to be a dick he can violate me and arrest me at any visit. I don't like having to count on him having a good day when I go see him. I don't think he will arrest me, but just knowing that he can turns my stomach. I think I'd die if I was taken away from my lil girl. Especially bcz there nobody that can really take care of her except me. She won't go to foster care or anything, but everyones tied up with their own lives.
Fuck man, taking those charges for my ex was the BIGGEST mistake of my life. I hope hes bubbas bitch in prison. I think as long as I can manage to make $60 a month to start making my PO payments again it should be ok until shes old enough for daycare. Then I can start working to catch up on my payments, and start tackling the 360 hours of community service I got left. I wanna at least get half done (its originally 400 hours, yeah I know I shouldve been on it before i was pregnant or earlier in my pregnancy). I've had a few friends get released early even though they hadn't completed all their hours. Ugh sorry for this big ass rant, I needed to vent about this. I'm trying not to cry
I'm doing alot better w my probation than I was before. So really this isn't much to bitch about.
But being on probation still scares the hell out of me. I just wanna live my life already. I think I need to win the lottery. Or find a sugar daddy. lol jk
Ok dinner is getting cold. end of my rant. Have fun this tuesday night guys.
Oh yeah I see the doc tomorrow, hopefully he'll tell me some good news about going into labor soon! ! !
Something cool to look at
We're trying to get me off early, my probation officer had explained to me that since I've already taken all the classes ect all I had to do was pay off my fines, catch up on my probation fees and get on it w my community service. Then I can request to go to court, get a cheap attorney to represent me and I can get an early release. Save around $2000.
So it's pretty obvious, I'm not gonna be able to work for a while, being that I'm about to have a baby real soon. And there is no way I am gonna put a newborn in day care. I just wanna get over this probation thing so bad, and move on w my life. Mostly move out of El Paso. You can't get anywhere in life here. It's really hard.
I don't mind having to see a PO every month, nor do I mind giving UAs, which is usually why people bitch about being on probation. I'm more concerned w the fines and the fact that if my PO wants to be a dick he can violate me and arrest me at any visit. I don't like having to count on him having a good day when I go see him. I don't think he will arrest me, but just knowing that he can turns my stomach. I think I'd die if I was taken away from my lil girl. Especially bcz there nobody that can really take care of her except me. She won't go to foster care or anything, but everyones tied up with their own lives.
Fuck man, taking those charges for my ex was the BIGGEST mistake of my life. I hope hes bubbas bitch in prison. I think as long as I can manage to make $60 a month to start making my PO payments again it should be ok until shes old enough for daycare. Then I can start working to catch up on my payments, and start tackling the 360 hours of community service I got left. I wanna at least get half done (its originally 400 hours, yeah I know I shouldve been on it before i was pregnant or earlier in my pregnancy). I've had a few friends get released early even though they hadn't completed all their hours. Ugh sorry for this big ass rant, I needed to vent about this. I'm trying not to cry
I'm doing alot better w my probation than I was before. So really this isn't much to bitch about. But being on probation still scares the hell out of me. I just wanna live my life already. I think I need to win the lottery. Or find a sugar daddy. lol jk
Ok dinner is getting cold. end of my rant. Have fun this tuesday night guys.
Oh yeah I see the doc tomorrow, hopefully he'll tell me some good news about going into labor soon! ! !
Something cool to look at
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also, now would be a good time to think about who you want to take her if something should happen. I know it sounds really gruesome and it's not something you really WANT to think about, but it's always good to have a plan and write it down. Make sure someone you trust knows about it etc.
I'm glad you were able to get a bit of rest.
xoxo
and if i get rich i would definitely consider being your sugar daddy
♥
Arg