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UGH.

~I have to be out of my house in two days.

~I have nowhere to move yet, and no money to move.

~I have last and this month's car payment due.

~I have no insurance yet, but I have to go to court soon for an insurance ticket.

~I haven't made it to court (I was supposed to go last week) for another ticket yet and probably have a warrant out.

~I have no job.

~I have had a month off and it has consisted of one week of strep throat, two weeks of poison ivy, and stressing out trying to find a place only to find we can't afford to move ANYWHERE anyway.

~I have not worked out in awhile and feel huge.

~I have a credit consolidation payment due (you know, i don't even think they're paying all the shit they say they are) and no money.

~My bank account is overdrawn.

~My boyfriend is freaking out and thinking he's a loser. He's the one that's been going to work every day and on weekends TO PAY FOR MY ASS!

~I feel like a big fat loser.

~My car tires are about to pop and I have no money for new ones.

~I'm avoiding going to see baby Trinity even though I'm dying to and I miss Ashleigh, because I can't seem to clear this negative energy (no wonder. It's not like I can just not think about all the above drama. I have to deal with it)

Any wise direction or words would be greatly appreciated. I am feeling more vulnerable than I have in a long time. I don't know what to do. Please no 'This too shall pass' s.