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Last night I got fucked.

It was alright.

I now appreciate Shawn a million times more.

He may have got off to a lame start, but two plus years of 'training' have really paid off.

Shawn is finally in control of that male urge 'see the pussy, fuck the pussy'...Now he uses his arousal to fuel his imagination.

Sex is just sex. Just a small blip on the ol' radar. (Well I guess last night was kind of a big blip. I'm super sore. )

Unless you're with someone who makes you come to life when they're touching you.

That's what I'm after, I've discovered. Sensual connection.

You can tell as soon as the touching gets a lttle more than friendly whether that connection is there or not.

And I think you can have chemistry without connection.

So I guess I want it all, as usual. Explosive chemistry and a moving connection.

Don't we all?

I love life.