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it's all. i. can. do. to. not. walk. out. of. my. job. right. NOW.

i don't even want to stay here while i look for another job. it's bringing me down, and FAST.

i'm going to go look for jobs to apply for and work on my resume. i don't know if i'll last here through the day or not.

edit:
serves me right for letting things at work affect my attitude!!

i went to get lunch, as i hadn't eaten yet and was starved and grumpy..

my card was declined.. i have no idea where the $300 i had in the bank went.

on the way back, someone slammed on their brakes, so i had to slam on mine, and my coworker's soda flew ALL over my car, all over the envelope i was supoosed to mail today, all over my shoes..grr.

then i was almost back to work and they had four streets closed off because of a MINOR accident, so i had to go all the way back around the long way. ( i had called in my food because i'm only supposed to have a fifteen minute break..took me over a half hour because of cleaning it up and the extra driving)

i called my boi like four times because i have been so overwhelmed with things i just needed to vent to someone.. he's pissed at me now for interrupting his working on my dad's truck.

sheesh! if that's not a warning from the universe saying, 'caution! negative manifestations coming! change thinking now!' what is???

silver lining:

the girl at the taco shop knows me and she was super sweet and said i could pay her for my half next time!

and my coworker went out and handed me paper towels as i soaked up the soda.

mission: look for things to be happy and grateful for and ignore present circumstances!!

i sent my resume to three salons. we'll see how fast they call me.. usually my resume is irresistable... so it should be soon.