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Friday Nov 11, 2005

Nov 11, 2005
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This is amazing. I feel it.
It's from Cricket's journal a long time ago.

I am very much alone.
And I don't even mind.
Being around the people I know is bringing me down.
I will take some solitude for a while.
I need to turn inward.
Moving to LA made me lose a hold on myself.
I'm starting to foget who I am.
I'm good
I'm strong
I'm talented
I'm smart.
If people are going to tell me different then I need to be alone.
I won't update here again until I have positive news.
I'm focusing on me.



I seem to be all I have.
That's fine.
Alone, is a fine place when I like myself.
And I tend to like myself when I'm alone.
Its the people around me who make me feel like maybe I shouldn't like myself. Maybe I'm not a very capable, strong, good, or smart person.
When you start to believe that about yourself, why would you ever want to be alone with yourself?
That's when you end up latching onto the people who are really just bringing you down.
They make you feel like you're not worthit, so you try and hold onto everything you feel is good around you and foget all about yourself and that you are truly the best thing you have, no one else.
It becomes an unhealthy cycle.
That's what makes people unhappy and puts you in a rut.
lemuria:
exactly. i feel that too. i do like being alone because its when im happiest. and thats so true about latching on to the people who bring you down. frown
Nov 11, 2005

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