_catalyst_

I feel free. I feel high and happy to be alive.
Better than the purest ecstasy could ever feel.
I have my body back. I have my life back.
I have things to be grateful for everywhere I turn.
My life is moving in a beautiful, harmonious direction.

Yes, things have been a blur lately -- but since your emotions are finally starting to slow down, your physical self should, too. Relaxation and comfort are more important than speed. Ease off the gas pedal and take the meandering road to your destination. Shortcuts will only frustrate you. Besides, following the scenic route is always more fun. There is no rush, no matter what...
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good news: i got medi-cal!

bad news: i can. NOT. function. which means missing a week and a half of work. which is more than the procedure costs anyway.

good news: i have some vacation/sick days i can use!

bad news: i don't think i have THAT many.

good news: as soon as we get back in town from tim's i'm high-tailin it to the...
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Scorpio:
Your latest accomplishments are giving you total permission to put your feet up and relax for a while -- so why aren't you doing it? As much as you might want to, don't push on any further today, because you are in danger of running out of gas. Listen to your body and give it a rest, okay? Continuing onward at this pace will...
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I am in such the Holiday mood lately! Yay!

Anderson Farms & Victoria's Gardens
You can pick strawberries here in the spring, watermelons in the summer and walk through a lighted wonderland in December, but in the fall it's all about pumpkins _ and the corn maze, flower maze, petting zoo, pony rides, hay rides, train rides, giant slides and fun jump. The farm stand...
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Phew.

I had been dreading talking to my boss, afraid that she would judge me for my situation or deny my schedule change request.

I was nervous. I told her that. She luaghed. Not in a mean way.

She said she's pro choice and she's taken her friend to get an abortion and that it will be okay and if I need anything or to...
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I'm teetering on the edge of ok and depressed.

I really want to be in the best shape I can be, yet I get dizzy, sick or exhausted when I try to exercise and this will continue for two more weeks.

I really wanted to be all toned and hot for Halloween, and now I'm going to be fat and flabby and I'm just not...
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Hi,

Have I told you lately how much I appreciate you?

You make my life so much more worth living.

You're so thoughtful.

You're always willing to help me however you can.

You're always lifting me up when I'm down.

You make me feel better about myself.

You remind me to appreciate now instead of worrying about later.

You take care of me and baby...
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good things:

tattoos coming very soon

get to hang out with two rad cousins in three weeks for a whole weekend

gotta figure out a fun costume

things are peaceful

getting into school by my birthday for sure!

time to shop for winter clothes~ fun

bad things:

feeling nausious CONSTANTLY. dealing with it one breath at a time. only two weeks til it's over.

edit: i have determined that driving/sitting in traffic twice a day five days a week raises my overall stress level significantly. i've got to find a way around this. again crossing fingers for the schedule i want and school asap!

1. just went and had a chronic break at 9:15 in the morning. then ate half of a huge fluffy pancake, three mozzerella sticks, and...
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still don't know what to do with hair next. too many ideas and only one head. go back an entry to see some of those ideas.

am trying to decide if i should stay at my boring but easy CS job and go to school at night or quit, go during the day and get a night job at a coffeehouse or some shit.

am...
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