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awww the utubes aren't working.....

wierd... they work on my work computer but not at home..

Honey.... I think she is no longer your true friend anymore.... She's more like a aquantince (sp?).... And if she is accusing you like the way she did, i don't think its worth you feeling hurt and "guilty". She can't say she hasn't noticed the drift.... If she's sooo upset, why doesn't she try a little harder too?!?!
I think in my oppinion.... You need to let her go in the direction she's going, and you go in your direction.... It sucks but it would probably be for the better. Hopefully it all works out for you babe! Take care and try not to stress so much about it.... It will all come together....

haha...my life is exciting. dramaspace...thats new.. and about that friend situation mentioned above, trim the fat dear. and the sooner the better. you'd be suprised how quickly you rise when you get rid of dead weight....good luck

i love how postive this journal is! i really need to see the secret and im definitely going to try to watch that oprah on the 31st! it all makes so much sense! and this part especially...
"you know what? i even feel good about the fact that my best friend of ten + years and i seem to be growing apart. you know that line in the Secret where they say 'law of attraction will not put you in the same space together, you'll zig while they zag' ? that's a perfect description of what's been happening with us for months now. we just cannot seem to coordinate to hang out.. i've only seen her twice in the past three months.. both times at parties, not quality time.. i refuse to think of how much i miss our times together and how much it sucks that we never hang out anymore.. instead i'm focused on the fact that i've been asking the universe for friends who are on the same level as i am.. and opening myself to letting people like that into my life... maybe that means lettin go of one last person who the 'old' me knew and loved...my sister thinks i suck for thinking this way, that i'm 'ditching' my friend..but i'm not ditching anyone. i'm just letting the law of attraction do its work. if Tea and i are meant to be close again, if we're meant to be in each others' lives, we'll be drawn to each other, and time to hang out will just appear."
at first its a little hard to do, but i think its the focusing on the negative aspect of it that makes it like that. i love the feeling of surrounding myself with positive people with like minds, than to just be stuck in someone elses negative cycle out of love? im not sure if its love that keeps one there or not...
enjoy your day off!

Awww YOU HAVE THE BEST ATTITUDE BABE!!! I'm glad you took the day off! Espech when the body is saying, "please just one more hour!!"
That is how i felt when i worked two jobs.... Thankfully i don't do that anymore!!
AND YOUR AN OPRAH LOVER TOO!!!! We were MEANT to meet eachother! I love her because she is SOOO inspiring! She SCREAMS positive! YAY FOR OPRAH!
And i hope your momma begins to be a little more positive because once she does, it will seem like all her problems are more like an experience of life. Not a burden! It takes a lot to train your brain to think in that way though.... I have faith she will!
You have the BESTEST day off babe!

YOU ARE SOOOO GOD DAMN SEXY, LADY FRIEND!!!
MAUH! You probably hear that a lot, but you are beautiful, cutie! I just LOVE your smile!
You have the bestest weekend honey!

You're so positive, I love it! And Sword in the Stone!!

oh i'm sure i'll love it! and i have a cool hair dresser in town and yes, it's some razor's going on always with my hair to get it more punky or something.

To answer your question about that accented fellow in the secrets video .... I believe that he is saying that if you take a string of words that are commanding your will (this is the source of the power). Then remove most of the visual meaning (removing parts like the repeating letters and vowels) then arrange the rest into a design. That design will contain something that the mind sees without total recognition (that same power).
The sigil (as he was calling it) is what a lot of modern marketing is based on, an image that makes you think of more then just what it is.
Hope that helps ... and I hope I got the right idea, too. I have always been appreciative of charms. That is what I got from this, a visual charm type thing.

i will. thank you.

Haha I dint even notice that... wow youre obsevant... well happy late bday by he way

haha you seem very happy
thats always good to see

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

Well welcome to the club. The State boards are always harder than the school final (at least in IL) so I'm sure you'll do just fine. You're already on your way seeing that you do your own hair (which looks pretty damn hot I might add).

Some day, when no one expects it or is looking for it, the hair stylists will take over the world! hehehe

happy birthday my dear!

good luck with hair school

how was ur first couple of days at school? Happy b-day early!