Sometimes I hate to put up new journal entries because I love the comments you guys leave me.
Thanks!
Today I'm home because I'm a bit sick; my asthma is flaring up again and it feels like I've got rocks in my lungs. I am also really confused about where I'm going with my life, so I'm taking this opportunity to write things down and re-evaluate what I'm doing. This sense of confusion is normally just something that kind of sits in the back of my mind, but now it's become this full-blown sort of tantrum I have to deal with.
I know lately all I write here is a bunch of superficial drivel about the activities and people that fill my day, but this sense of confusion about the future has been building up for the past few months. I guess it's hard to write about because I'm used to being judged so harshly by people in my life, but now I really don't give a fuck. I don't have to anymore; I don't invest my emotions in people that don't respect me or support me in being happy (except for my dad, but we're working on that).
So, I guess I'm just thinking about a lot of stuff I've avoided thinking about and trying to figure out a new exciting plan of attack for dealing with tomorrow.
Tragic controversial literary heroine of the day: Zelda Sayre Fitzgerald
Artist of the day: William Blake
Song of the day: Happiness by Grant Lee Buffalo
Nevermind me 'cause I've been dead
Out of my body been out of my head
Nevermind the songs they hum
Don't want to sing along
There's nothin' that I said
That'll bring you happiness happiness
Is hard to come by I confess
I'm bad at this thing happiness
If you find it share it with the rest of us
Nevermind the words that came
Out of my mouth when all that I could feel was pain
The difference in the two of us
Comes down to the way
You rise over things I just put down
That'll bring you happiness happiness
Is hard to come by I confess
I'm bad at this thing happiness
If you find it share it with the rest of us
Rest of us
Nevermind me 'cause I've been dead
Out of my body been out of my head
Nevermind the curse I wore
Proud like a badge
Till it just don't shine no more
That'll bring you happiness happiness
Is hard to come by I confess
I'm bad at this thing happinessIf you find it share it with the rest of us
Rest of us
Thanks!
Today I'm home because I'm a bit sick; my asthma is flaring up again and it feels like I've got rocks in my lungs. I am also really confused about where I'm going with my life, so I'm taking this opportunity to write things down and re-evaluate what I'm doing. This sense of confusion is normally just something that kind of sits in the back of my mind, but now it's become this full-blown sort of tantrum I have to deal with.
I know lately all I write here is a bunch of superficial drivel about the activities and people that fill my day, but this sense of confusion about the future has been building up for the past few months. I guess it's hard to write about because I'm used to being judged so harshly by people in my life, but now I really don't give a fuck. I don't have to anymore; I don't invest my emotions in people that don't respect me or support me in being happy (except for my dad, but we're working on that).
So, I guess I'm just thinking about a lot of stuff I've avoided thinking about and trying to figure out a new exciting plan of attack for dealing with tomorrow.
Tragic controversial literary heroine of the day: Zelda Sayre Fitzgerald
Artist of the day: William Blake
Song of the day: Happiness by Grant Lee Buffalo
Nevermind me 'cause I've been dead
Out of my body been out of my head
Nevermind the songs they hum
Don't want to sing along
There's nothin' that I said
That'll bring you happiness happiness
Is hard to come by I confess
I'm bad at this thing happiness
If you find it share it with the rest of us
Nevermind the words that came
Out of my mouth when all that I could feel was pain
The difference in the two of us
Comes down to the way
You rise over things I just put down
That'll bring you happiness happiness
Is hard to come by I confess
I'm bad at this thing happiness
If you find it share it with the rest of us
Rest of us
Nevermind me 'cause I've been dead
Out of my body been out of my head
Nevermind the curse I wore
Proud like a badge
Till it just don't shine no more
That'll bring you happiness happiness
Is hard to come by I confess
I'm bad at this thing happinessIf you find it share it with the rest of us
Rest of us
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reevalutaion is good. I'm doing some of that myself. mostly it consists of trying not to panic.
oh! by the way: you ROCK!
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