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My bad... I'll start to pay more attention. *sorry*

Hi!
I'm so happy that someone can relate! I finally get rid of some of the anger last night, not all. I woke up around 2:00 and got dressed, got in the car, and took a long drive. I got home just in time to get changed, get gas, get a cup of coffee and be at work by 7:00. Sometimes taking a long road trip helps me clear my head. Last night was one of those nights. But I can't fake like it's not there. Because I know damned well it is. I don't think faking anything is ever an answer. If I can't sit and meditate, then I meditate while or by doing something else. And let me tell you. It's a lot of work for me right now, just to deal with a little. But it gets better. Unfortunately I have discovered the hard way that there are a lot of people who are into zen that I don't think are coming from the same place I think I'm coming from. I talk about it more freely on here, but if you ever met me in person the odds are pretty strong that you would have no idea I'm into it.

I'm hardly a teacher, and likely never will be, but I'm always willing to talk to people and share ideas. If you tell me how you learn to deal with things, or what you are challenged by, I will happily reply in kind. Or, if you like, ask me anything. I'm an open book these days...