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well well - I suppose this will be one of my last journal entries for a while - my account is slated to expire on the 5th.... it was nice to meet some cool people from here.... it has been fun
I will be back though - so don't worry.... but right now I just can't worry about the 9 bucks making my account go defecient and then making something bounce and getting charged 25 bucks then another 25 bucks and so on and so on........

life is going ok - I have been drinking a bit too much lately - I suppose that it has a lot to do with trying to make my life work and - well - I dunno..... I just need to look at my life and see where I want to go and what I want to do.... I am 35 and I really have nothing to show for the years of work I have put in, I have a daughter that I rarely see and a failed marriage from 4 years ago - which I have gotten over long ago, I just am at a point in my life where I am looking at my life in retrospect and wondering where I went wrong and how do I prevent those mistakes from happening again..... and most importantly - how do I find happiness.... I know I am a good person - I deserve to be happy - but it seems to elude me at every corner..... I dunno - I am a bit down I guess.....
anyways - it's no big deal - just life's ups and downs.....
take care all and I hope to chat again with you soon.....