_alice_

i`m feeling really unproductive lately. i just can`t seem to get myself together enough to do anything that involves leaving my apartment... or staying in my apartment for that matter. i haven`t cleaned anything in almost a month, i can`t even remember the last time my place was so dirty.
i think part of it has something to do with my new neighbours. they moved in a few months ago, and one night about a while back they were getting wasted on cheap beer on my porch, i was on my way out and one of them got right in my face and stuttered something that sounded like 'take your shirt off', then he stared at me like he was burning a hole in my back until i was in the car and around the corner. i hate not feeling safe in my own home, it brings up alot of bad memories for me. ever since then, i haven`t been spending alot of time here, and i feel uncomfortable when i am here. people have said much worse shit to me, but that fact that they live right below me and there`s nothing i can do about it makes me angry.
or maybe i`m just making up excuses so i don`t sound like a lazy slob.... but i don`t think so.