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this relationship has evolved into something so simultaneously dysfunctional and functional.
i don't even know.

on one hand, i love her. she loves me.
we know this.
and we're best friends.
i could never live my life without her in it, and i'm willing to settle for us being good friends rather than lovers in order to do that.
i know she's dealing with a...
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ldwarren:
Seems a pretty mature attitude do it, fingers crossed ot comes good. smile
___ellie:
thank you.
i really do try to make things as easy as possible for the both of us...
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last night was a damn good new year's.
although a part of me wanted to go out... a bigger part just wanted to stay in, so that's what i did.

mark, hid friend joe, heather and i all hung out at mark's/my house
we drank guinness and champagne
lit a fire in the back yard
went inside when the neighbors started shooting off guns in...
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ldwarren:
Shooting guns off? Jesus, different world. The Metropolitan police would have you in a cell for the night if you tried that here.
___ellie:
yeah i kind of live in a more...
"urban" part of town.
the police were probably all over the place but had better things to deal with i'm sure.
shooting them off was fine, but the thought of the bullets coming back down was not okay.
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last night was so random and fun.
heather, mark and i went to applebees for a late dinner and first of all, when we got there, they were blaring some hip hop r&b something or other which was really, definitely out of place.
anyway
we get in and sit down and we got a super cute waitress
(who actually brought me enough lemon when i...
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ldwarren:
That's exactly what I need; my current friends just get lamer daily.

Glad you like Bjork - I've seen her live 4 times.

Have a great New Year. smile
___ellie:
hah.
yeah some of mine to, too.
thankfully i have a few who completely rule.
happy new year to you, too!
doing anything crazy?
im probably not driving up for that party.. most likely staying in and getting trashed with those non-lame friends i mentioned before.
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i always procrastinate..
and then i sit down and feel like writing here, and so much has happened that i have no idea where to start.

christmas eve was great.
i even went to fountain park (something i said i wouldn't do this year, only because i didn't really want to put myself into short brothers territory, open to subtle attack and awkwardness)... but neither...
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ldwarren:
All good. You got something good planned for New Year's eve? smile
___ellie:
ohh yeah.
big party at my friends place in north florida.
it should be fun considering the shit i heard about from last years..
and yourself?
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... is an optical illusion.


there is a curtain that separates my bathroom from my bedroom.
from inside my bedroom, the curtain rod looks straight in the doorway.
from inside the bathroom, it looks about 20 degrees crooked.





this is really screwing me up.
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ldwarren:
Bloc Party rule.

As does your profile pic, unless that's your natural expression in which case I recommend you get your eyes tested.


tongue
___ellie:
hah. i actually do have horrible eyesight, but that wasn't the cause here