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i haven't looked anything on here yet, but i want to say

~sorry for bein such a wet blanket
~thanks again for being so supportive and sweet
~i feel much better and in control again
~i have no computer or internet still
~i'm in idaho visiting my family and it's been an amazing time
~i feel grounded and my head cleared
~i still have nightmares...
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aki1:
miss you to
scary part is
are u ever going to loose that feeling
meaning if him or u arent at same location
are u always going to wonder
its hard cause u cant help whom u love
glad to hear u went somewhere where u gather strength
come back roaring baby miao!! kiss
xalicex:
listen to your heart.....its more honest than any of us ever are
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good god, where have all of my positive thinking skills gone?

do you ever feel like you want nothing more than to shrink so small you just disappear?

that you could just cease to exist?

that you really don't like yourself,
so what's the point of trying to make your life any better since you don't deserve it to be better?

and besides. your efforts...
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aki1:
hey im taking positive changes for my life
i cut my hair



i actually have to do things to my hair now biggrin im having fun with it
now ive gotta figure out what colors
and im thinking of being wise and go to the academy instead of risking a horrorhairshow eeek
i figured ive gotta get back to being in my groove
my own funkalicous state in order to be me
and be happy
meeeeeehhhhh
im trying stuff anyways
hows ur life snowflake love
fred:

doesn't deserve to be any better? whatever

We all have our hard moments, but they'll all pass eventually.
It takes time.

You can do it! Just be patient with yourself and don't give up.


BTW nice profile pic
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phew. that was a loooong few weeks. puke

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after not being able to eat, bursting into tears at any given moment, overanalyzing, feeling lost, not knowing how to act, just wanting to be sure of ANYTHING....just pure hell i tell ya...

everything is back to normal. no, better than normal.

~i know that it will never happen again, and not just because...
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aki1:
no thank you pretty
for being back to you and all the great things that life has in store for you
its life
im glad ur back

ps ill msg u later cause im going for it
coloring my own hair eeek
just wanna make sure the stuff i got from sally beautysupply will work
man im so glad ur ok
love
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just say yes.

"When you say "Yes" to something, you include something you do want in your experience. When you say "No" to something, you include something you don't want in your experience."

~Abraham

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Today is what you make it. Improve your attitude simply by thinking positively.

What's the definition of a good day -- and when was the last time...
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sitar:
long day, a bit of a party, many chances to take the high road.
aki1:
i just found this and decided to post it with all my favorite peeps today
inspiration to be more about u and what u want in life
and take less poo from ppl
i hope u had a cool weekend


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_catalyst_:
you guys are too nice! blush
marginwalker2002:
I really like that Holland quote. That's something I'vce been struggling with. Not just forgiving, but obsessing over things lost. That quote is something I can use. Thank you for that.
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thank you all, you're so sweet.

all i have for right now is this:

thank you, universe!! i asked a question, and here is my answer!

Never face reality unless your reality is just the way you want it to be. --- Abraham

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when what you thought you knew for sure turns out to be wrong...

this past couple weeks has been full of...
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smurf:
i wanna take you to a gay bar blush

Electric Six song....or good times? you decide wink
sitar:
namaste, and if i may be so bold,

I'm always happy to hear people use the word open,
"how i'm willing to be open to things i wasn't before".
please don't shut down and close just because things are tough.
please remain open, even if it is an opening to disapointment and sorrow.
your openness to the truth is your light and your gift to the world.
please continue to bless us with your light.
oh, and good luck manifesting trustworthy men.
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in the secret group, sitaramdas started a topic about this, and it totally inspired me.

in the book 'ask and it is given', they give us a ton of exercises/games to learn to train our minds and our vibrations into the positive.

one of the games is 'wouldn't it be nice if..?'

basically you start off with that phrase, and then you let your imagination...
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ali_bug:
hahahaaa sooo many people say that to me! I'm 21!!! lol but at times i think i look 16!!! hahaaa! At least when i'm 40 i will still look 30!!! YAY!
Ya Wild Hogs was soooo funny! No i haven't seen Reno 911!! I heard it was great! tongue
sitar:
good stuff!!
I love being the inspiration!!
I want you to inspire me too!!
Won't it kick ass to create a world full of mutual and communal inspiration!!
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kobeyk:
I think her in general makes us all feel funny in our pantalones (even those of us that aren't wearing any!). She's just fuckin sexy
xalicex:
how cute are those undies!
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yesterday i went to the beach. in march. like everyone else in san diego.

it was amazing. i love being alone, and going busy places alone, being in my own peaceful bubble, is the best!

it was BREATHTAKING down there! everywhere i looked i saw vibrance and beauty!

i feel so renewed.

the best things in life are free. they only require opening your eyes...
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arielle:
here it's way too cold to go to the beach, but it's warmer than it was a few days ago, so I won't complain smile
I love skinny leg jeans, I wear that pretty much all the time!
ali_bug:
Your pictures are sooo nice! I miss the little flowers.... I want all the snow to go away!!! At least with your pictures it made me think of summer.... ahhhh what a nice feeling! Knowing that summer is on its way! YAY!
and that quote made me happy... Things lately have been very stressful... So it helped a little! Thanks babe! I hope that all is well for you sweetie! kiss
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so i haven't been spending much time on here lately.. i've been in a self-induced funk.

what you focus on, you get. and that includes focusing on stuff like 'how are we going to make it through this' or 'i hate this' or 'where are we going to get the money to pay these bills'.

i'm coming out of it. it took a couple weeks...
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femi:
yeah he owns it, he had a party last night there, i'm on the list for receptionist too but i'll let him know(he always needs help).
miao!!Femi
user081222227:
I always love reading your bloggies..

they keep me inspired in this continual cycle of trying to get the bullshit and the angst out of my life... I feel like sometimes I just can't detach myself from it.. and its always gonna keep coming back, but I know I need to keep that shit from gettin me down and that there's so much better out there for me..

so thanks for your sunnyness! biggrin smile
take care dear
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ali_bug:
Seriously... this picture made my eyes water.... frown It has to get better sweetheart... smile
xalicex:
that looks like one of the best hugs ive ever seen.

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WHY...

..am i so depressed?

guesses:

1. because my family is in another state and i haven't seen them in two weeks or talked to any of them in a week.

2. because i haven't seen my best friend in over two months.

3. because without a job i feel stagnant, but i refuse to rush into just any old job that i'll hate and...
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izzy:
awwww i hope you feel better!
i hate those days =(
tell your boyfriend to drag his ass away from the freaking shop sometime!