xynnedra

I'm very bored latey... I need to find more stuff to do and more people to hang out with. People who understand are fun and lively and like getting out of the fucking house... I tell people lets' hang and in all honesty they automatically go well I can go to your house so and so day or you can come here. I understand money's...
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I'm sooo bored lately... I'm also exhausted, with waking up at 530 in the am to hit the gym 4 days a week, I think I'm going delousional....I don't remember why I started going to the gym, but I finally have a work out partner so I like going,cause we bullshit and push each other. People tend to stop and gawk at us and our...
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Independence is great and all, but when you are always independent and everyone's depending on you... You just want to be able to lean on someone. You just want someone to wrap their arms around you even just for a little bit and say "I got this, you relax for a little bit." This world is cold, it's desolate and frozen and the only person...
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I hate choices sometimes... you never know if your making the right choice or if what your doing is the biggest mistake of your life... And lately all the choices in my life are scaring the living shit outta me. I want to go back to school and I want to finish getting my degree. So I will finally have my masters but for some...
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Sucky Halloween All!!!


Because of lack of funding I couldn't go to the one party I've been planning to go to for months...Since June...I requested time off from work for it so I could recover from said party...And no! I did not go. I wanted to go...And because my funding was short I could not go. Why was my funding short, well cause I had...
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Am I crazy or determined...I wake up early to go to work and have a long ass day surrounded by idoits... Now I'm getting up uber early. Why? Because I want to use the weight room and not have to wait for huge muscled no necked men preening in front of mirrors to perfect their forms...Then when I bend over to do bent over rows,...
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I hate studying...But I need to finish school, I so need to leave my job but I don't want to leave until I'm finished and have my degree and can finally go into the field I want to.
STUDYING SUX

Today was a pretty good day...I actually made up with one person who pissed me off yesterday. He was a real asshole and he actually apologized and said I wasn't a stuck up bitch... Well besides that easy day, only like 9 patients today so got to go through charts and finish paper work. And apparently all the weird working out has started to pay...
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I'm not what a lot of people think I am. And I know I keep myself secret. Not because I'm stuck up and not because I think I 'm better than anyone. Just because I think that most people would not understand who or I am or what I am. Am I monster in control, do I have a problem that needs help. Or am...
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