I have decided to try and go back to work today. I hate sitting around the house sick and it is alot harder on me with the whole Justin thing right now because I have nothing to do to keep my mind off of it. I am going to work tonight at the club. I just picked up my other paycheck from the piercing shop...
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Well tomorrow has been almost a week since Justin pulled the trigger and things really don't seem any easier. Maybe because by monday night I was running a 104 temp. maybe just because when it rains it pours. I was suppose to go back to work today at both my jobs but my case of the flu isn't allowing me to do so and I...
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xenos:
Well, I hope you feel better soon. Let me know if you change your mind.
xenos
xenos
hellwood:
hey girl
i'm really sorry, life sucks some times but like i learned when they were beating the shit out of me that it all boils down to small victorys, when all is going to shit, small victorys will get you though, its all you have and you get those and it will build up to bigger things then bigger things, and dont worry even though you are a women, i can still bitch alot more than you, remember i am a profesional. hehe that was a joke. gotta run
small victorys and boat drinks
elwood
i'm really sorry, life sucks some times but like i learned when they were beating the shit out of me that it all boils down to small victorys, when all is going to shit, small victorys will get you though, its all you have and you get those and it will build up to bigger things then bigger things, and dont worry even though you are a women, i can still bitch alot more than you, remember i am a profesional. hehe that was a joke. gotta run
small victorys and boat drinks
elwood
Today is a sad day in my head. My ex boyfriend took his life the night befor last and I think that my lack of sympathy is not necessarily to blame but as I said much undesired and I think it may have lead to the pushing over the edge. Although not throughout our relationship I can say for the last few monthes I have...
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hellwood:
wow these are all strong words that try and explain strong measures or actions taken.... reading above says alot from different people that may have or may have not been there/done that, but they are all good. I am so sorry, i have seen alot of things and gone thru alot of things, I lost my best friend a month ago here in an ambush, there was nothing i could do to help him, many many tears have been shed, and they wont stop for a long while. so i understand you feeling powerless and guilty about it, for that i am sorry and feel bad. I was not there i cannot say who's fault but really there is no blame, NONE. understand that please if anything. for you, just look ahead and understand you have a life to lead.. and live it to the fullest. I am soo sorry
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[Edited on Dec 17, 2003 12:42AM]
xenos:
I'm sorry to hear it. It's always terrible to lose someone and it's tremendously easy to feel at fault. You just have to remember that you are not to blame. No one made him kill himself besides him.
If you need some company this weekend, I'm trying to get a get-together together for Saturday afternoon/evening. If you're feeling up to it, I'm sure you'd get some moral support from the SGFL gang, myself included.
If you need some company this weekend, I'm trying to get a get-together together for Saturday afternoon/evening. If you're feeling up to it, I'm sure you'd get some moral support from the SGFL gang, myself included.
Ok I am a little bit calmer now. I don't really now how I feel about the given situation at hand with Patrick's parents but whatever. I am atleast not screaming obsinities... I definitely fear the given situation and how me not being able to see him as often is going to take a toll on our relationship. Faith never was one of my strong...
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hellwood:
congrats on trying to visit the man, but damn i wish i was back there to check out the j.o.b. I hear you. but you do look beatiful. ya i will be here with all my "friends" but thinking about starting a HUGE fireworks show wink wink just so we can have some fun and do smething. Probaly just party with my pelican. agian wish i could come and help you out, your a strong girl.
elwood
elwood
801mustang:
you need a double to take care of your crap work so you can take some time off and so you can get some lovin from your man 
Ya know sometimes you reach a fucking point when you just want to throw your fucking arms in the air and give up. Granted I know, I haven't been the best person in the world, and maybe my occupation is less then to be desired for some people but you do what makes you happy right? Maybe its not about my job like Patrick says...
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hellwood:
wow sounds like a day huh, sorry about that. its funny how people judge over silly BS, my guess is people have to have drama in their lives to make them happy becuase their lives are shit... I dont know I didnt get to stay at a holiday Inn suites hotel last night sorry
Well finals are starting and stress is building. I found out that my bio final is 2 days befor I thought which blows because that is 2 days less then I thought I had to study. Blah well that means I have a few weeks off to make money. God I wish we could just go back to the barter system. It would be so...
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801mustang:
i know what your talkin about with the whole proud to be white thing. i have a friend who's married to a white chick and he is black. but his little girl cant date a white dude cause hes not good enough. what ever marry tap dancing chrismas
theory
theory
hellwood:
well i just finished celabrating eid, its the muslim holiday where they fast for a month(really they eat at night), so my holidays are over of course i am not muslim. I am glad to hear somebody say that, i saw a bumper sticker once that said never apoligize for being white, nuff said.
Patrick is comming tomorrow night which means I am going to be cumming as well! oh I'm sorry was that too volger? Patrick makes me excited and I get him until sunday. I am so falling in love! 
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smug:
G'day! H'mmm what do I play?
I'm pretty well orientated towards electroclash, synthepop, nu-wave and other applicable sub-genres. Most electronic music is sexless, so I try to play as much smut as possible.
Make sure you give Patrick one for me!
Seeya!
I'm pretty well orientated towards electroclash, synthepop, nu-wave and other applicable sub-genres. Most electronic music is sexless, so I try to play as much smut as possible.
Make sure you give Patrick one for me!
Seeya!
stacie:
awww.. that sucks about the septum and the cold thing! Poor girl 
Hope things are getting better for you in the nose region
Hope things are getting better for you in the nose region
HA like my cheezin' ass could be depressed for anything longer then a day. I should probably be a little more depressed then I am because I am just in a dreadful about of financial termoil right now, but I will make it through. Damn being diciplined and not spending money! Oh well, I always come out on top! Anyone who wants to take that...
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paleenchantress:
you are so puuuur-ty
adore:
You look very familiar....do you work at Needful Things?
My sadness saturates me; silence shines brightly in my moments unable to be distracted a distraction I have cursed for so long. Delusion by denial, a failure to honor a name I have done no dignity. I sit here restless, unable to wonder to anything but my own failure. Spoiled little brat, remove that plastic smile off your face. Do you have a question of...
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salome_seule:
(ps you should apply to be an sg)
I am at work and I am bored. I await the arrival of Patrick tomorrow and I have been trying to figure out something that will be cute and fun that I can do special for him but to this point I do not know what that cute special something should be.... anyone with an idea should help me out...
OK OK OK, I know that all of you who read my journals on a regular basis are probably sick of hearinga bout Patrick already but I just can't help myself. I haven't seen him in almost 8 hours and I have already spoken to him like 5 or 6 times. We are really rediculous about each other and I never remember being so goofy...
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This is so rediculous, I drove 2 1/2 hours to see homeboy last saturday night after I got out of work at midnight, now its friday and I am doing the same goofy ass thing. Why am I driving to ft. lauderdale in the middle of the night for some lovin'? Beats the hell out of me because there is plenty of penis in ft....
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throatneedle:
Getting in/out is worth driving 2.5 hours for
801mustang:
thats well bad! if i was to drive to ft myers to get some lovin it would be a lot longer then 2 1/2 hours. it would be like 420 hours. and that is rediculous.
theory
theory
B-rizzle
ps you need to cheer up
pps you just said pp
ppps i bet that made you smile