In the back of my mind I fear the pendulum sweep from failure and back to boredom is certain but for the moment it's at rest at lo ebb. tonight It seems I could never run out of desires to satiate, a tacit understanding of what's to be done next, and a reprieve from the... Read More
you can only drift so far before the city lights dim to nothing.
hit that spot and hope the wind changes. because you wonder if you're strong enough besides.
even that life raft with all the people you know singing and bouncing around like marionettes seems out of sight now. but it's so dark that maybe your eyes haven't adjusted.
i've had plenty of people walk away in the last few weeks.
benni: gone.
cassiopeia: gone.
sunny: gone.
sarah: gone?
you... well, you can handle that one. i've done everything i feel i can to have kept you here. do what you want. otherwise, fuck off. i've had enough loss.
not too shabby is it