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Hehehe..... I'm ok with the fact that the wish sucks. I laughed pretty hard when I read that.
Yes, I see what you are saying though. That hoping without resolution sucks. I'm born and trained into loving process as much as the resolution and outcome. The process, it may seem to suck but you peel away the surface and underneath it's not so bad.

I would love a massage! I would totally hit you up too as long as you've got good fingers. I don't mind a bit of pain to make the muscles release.

I won't be making any dance pieces for awhile. This new job is taking up all my brain power. However, I do have a dance piece stationed in the back burner of my brain. I need to work on my injuries first and get back into it the right way.... You know, you can just come up to Canada and visit dance or not. There ya go, there's an invite.

I did tell him I had a crush on him in fact I told him alot more. He turned the other cheek. I don't fall in love easily or quickly and that was quite the blow. Some people are not meant to be with each other. I learned alot.

He's a stupid fuck. Just to let you know.

Well I have pretty great hands. I am in the construction field as a structural engineer, along with being an artist in residence.

I hope you get all your ailments worked out.
Things should come together for you pretty soon

Yeah the process is as important as the imperative resolution.

Love
xxx

I love those!
I love them!
I'm going to read them again and then read them again later......




I'm reading a book about zen buddhism right now. I'm so intrigued by it.

My rabbit is very cute but he is pure asshole. Cute is what has kept him in my house or from being stew. He recently knawed on my klipsch speaker cords. RAWR!

layered metaphors.... I'm always thinking in layers. It gets me into trouble sometimes. Most people don't want things defined 10 ways, just one. It's just the way i'm hardwired to think. it's what makes me creative, drives me crazy, makes me live and breathe and want to cry too. Did I mention that beds are a place of reckoning and sometimes I get insomnia? Haha.

I want to comment on your words but I have to jet to work asap. I'll be back.
I love that it's a list.

I'll see what I can do...

Hahaha....
interesting question.
I've never written about a bed before but I have this crazy image locked in my head of this wish coiling uplike the roots of a tree through the matress and I really like it.

Beds.... My sleep is really broken up right now because of a shoulder injury. Everytime I roll over it jars me awake so I have to lay in one or two positions all night.... maybe that's it? I think beds are a place of reckoning. It's one place I gear down and have time to think (if I don't fall asleep first). Also, it's an Asian tradition (Chinese?) to put a New Year's wish under your bed for the year...... where on earth did I read that? Hmmmm...... I'm a big into layered metaphors and multiple meanings in all my artistic work.

Good question. I never post this long. Haha!

nice.

my dear, didn't you hear??

nothing is impossible.

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I got it!!
And thanks, its had its days, but right now Quite warm

i agree that most people are psychotic. congrats on the home. hope all is well.

No sry shug

Calgary Alberta,
And im actually here now!
thank god,
and have an awesome time.
I lvoe it here

Yeah No kidding!
Ive even might get this really awesome Camera!
but all depends on if my mother will lend me the money,

Thanks! Zoe is a cutie...she's a devil in disguise though.

I've been doing good lately..just been busy with work and hobbies. How about you?

i totally hear ya about loving your kids!
and on the avoiding people.
but you still left some love for meeeeeeeeeee!

we just planned today- no actual inking took place.
i'm tired and have a wicked headache so that was prolly better...

Well love,
As aweosme as that sounds!
I just dont see you being able to fall for me!
Especially since the place that im moving to next year
Is filled with MAD! stunning ladies, And my job,
It'd be impossible for me to see that working. but yeah
im moving to the Nanaimo next year!
ive always loved the ocean and me and my best friend, Have had this plan for years but now with our school being done, it can actually happen.
But it'd be awesome if you lived there!

thank you jason, that was kind of you to say.
i hope wherever you end up moving to, you find happiness. it has eluded you for too long

Nice.

No matter where I go and no matter how much scum and desperation there is, it's never like home.

In an unrelated note:

Due to our mutual love of The American Bible of Outlaw Poetry I wanted to ask if you've become familiar with The American Bible of Outlaw Literature and The American Bible of Outlaw Essays. I picked up Literature the other day, it's pretty good. At the very least having the other two would round out a nice bookshelf.

If you're interested let me know if you can find it near you. If not I can get a copy of it at substantial discount here and I'd mail it to you. A gesture of friendship.