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If someone told me as recently as five years ago that I would be where I am today, I wouldn't have believed it. I try to imagine better times ahead, but can't realistically see it happening. I feel like everyone I thought I could count on is disappointing me. The truth is, that my actual disappointment is with myself.

Someone I respect very much told...
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apexxx:
yep kraven seems pretty cool, we just need to get her out to an SGC event now...

when your team needs 4 things to happen to make the playoffs and you can only control 1 of them (win the all remaining games), I pretty much rule my team out of the playoffs... can you imagine if we went 10-6 and no playoffs???? shocked
mrsted_stryker:
Thank you. I really dont feel strong after these past 24 hours tho. whatever
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I'll be heading for the airport in about five hours for my trip to North Carolina. Since I won't be seeing my family during Christmas or Hannukah, I've filled a suitcase with gifts for my daughter, son in law and especially my grandchildren.

I've been feeling really stressed. I hope I can put those feelings aside and enjoy my family for a few days. There...
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sherrillee:
I'm glad it was a good visit. Things will be better. It won't get easier - but over time it should get better.
I know it's hard to not dwell in the memories of a better time. But you have a lot of time left to make new memories. And at some point they will be as sweet as the old ones....
madviking:
Thanks for your comment and I know I'm so lucky to have the great wife I have and that you had that same experience. I'm also glad that you found someone that will help you in the next phase of your life and make you happy. smile

Also I agree that [Lizabeth] is one of the best friends on SG. blush
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I hope everyone had a nice Thanksgiving.

I had a good day with my daughter, Heather. We spoke with the rest of our family in North Carolina a couple of times during the day. It wasn't the same as having them up here for the holiday, but it had to do. It's amazing how my granddaughter, Alexa, carries on a conversation. When I talk to...
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velvet_petal:
Glad you got to spend time with at least one of your daughters. With the economy all topsy turvy I imagine it will be a different sort of holiday season for many here, but also a time to pull together.

I got my tree up already. biggrin Maybe there won't be so much under it this time, but no matter. For some reason, I'm feeling particularly festive and optimistic that this year will be spent focusing on the important things.
mrchairman:
I hope you achieve that "peace of mind" you seek. As for me, I'm still here... alive and kicking. wink
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Things were looking up to some degree when I posted my last blog. Unfortunately, several things have happened over the past week that caused me to feel hurt and disappointed.

In spite of adjustments I've made, my financial situation continues to deteriorate. Mae-Ann and I have been discussing my moving in with her for a while now. The main obstacle has been that she has...
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velvet_petal:
I hope that despite some of the circumstances that you have a lovely holiday too. As for me, the house is clean and pretty. I got the last fresh Butterball in the store today. Felt kind of guilty when seconds after I picked it up and walked away I heard a lady asking one of the clerks if they had anymore fresh Butterballs. I have all the fixings and my plan is to get up really early make the meal and then make the 180 mile drive to my parents and surprise them. I had called them last weekend to give them the disappointing news that I had so much work stuff pending that I didn't think I could make it....which was true, but I got more handled than expected and what the hell....it's Thanksgiving, right?
gingerkiss:
I had a nice and mellow Turkey day. Thank you and hope you had a nice one smile
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I've taken some steps to ease my financial situation over the past few weeks. I found a way to lower my health care premiums, which have been putting a serious drain on my available funds. As a result, I will have to change doctors. Although I'm comfortable with him, I feel that transfering to a different doctor is necessary when weighed against the savings.

I've...
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voss:
thank you sweetie for the kind words on my psw set.

oh and I have my second order from sg for my leather!!
allied:
Keep hanging in there, bro. The can-do, American spirit lives on.
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Based on what I'm feeling right now, I have a lot I want to say. I'm very emotional about a couple of things that have been on my mind lately. I've decided not to talk about them until I'm absolutely sure that I have my facts straight.

I hope I'm wrong about something that, if true, would be very painful to deal with ( it's...
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allied:
I could not be more happy. biggrin Hope won.
mattacme:
By the way, the "ignore" button was simply made for folks like spinmonster6billion. I recommend you take ad vantage of this useful feature as there is no reasoning with that nonsense. Just some friendly advice.
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I've been an SG member since February of this year. In all this time, I've never posted a blog where I mentioned politics before today, even though I'm very politically active in my daily life, as well as posting in the Liberal Politics group on this site.

Election Day is a week and a half away. I believe that this is the most important election...
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mattacme:
So surprised to find someone who feels the same way I do about this election. I have zero faith in the polls.
siamkittie:
I really hope next we can finally meet up. Today I finally for MRI follow-up at 3:30; had to push the appt back. They put like 8 shots of lidocaine/muscle relaxants in my shoulders and neck. And I have to go to PT 3x a week.

I have an appointment with a recruiter Monday morning. Reallly good friend of my good friend here. I'm keeping my fingers crossed. I just need a job right now to start paying some of my medical bills down before they get really bad.
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There are questions I need answers to. I know which people have the answers. I'm convinced that I won't like what they have to say. That's because I really don't need them to tell me what I already know deep inside.

I continue to put off seeking out the ones that I need to confront with my questions. That's because I don't believe they'll answer...
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lizaeth:
Sounds like a really difficult place to be. So sorry. frown Only you know what you want and what is best.
tabi:
i mean, 99% of the people i've interacted with via this site have been amazing. it's just that 1% that ruins it for me.

i spoke with her today, while she was on her way to work. from what i gather, she's been working a lot and has been very busy.
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I thought I would post an update on last week's blog. Not there's all that much new to say, but I wanted to get that very depressing post from last week off the screen. So here's the latest.

I've done some thinking and am trying to formulate a plan of action. First of all, Im trying to network with certain people about helping me find...
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oro:
Well thank you, I apreciate a lot!
renna:
I hope everything works out for you, hun!
xo
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I've been too depressed to post anything during the last 48 hours. I'm trying to put those feelings aside long enough to post this.

I've written about a number of problems I've had to deal with over the time I've been an SG member. Those problems included relationship and health issues. I received a lot of good advice and encouragement here.

What I'm dealing with...
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dannydmc:

Oh, this election has been over for over two weeks by this point. The question is no longer "will McCain lose" , the question now is "how much will McCain lose by". When Pat Buchannan comes out and admits that the Republican candidate has no shot, it says a lot. When William F. Buckley's oldest son comes out in favor of Obama, it says even more.
If you study the McCain campaign (and calling it a 'campaign' is like referring to someone cutting their own leg off, with a rusty saw, as 'surgery'. Technically correct, but somehow missing the point) its actions have become more and more erratic. The fact that they are concerned about their standing in states such as Kentucky and Nebraska says a great deal. The fact that they refuse to admit defeat in states such as Iowa and Wisconsin says even more.
I'm no longer worried about whether or not Obama will win. What I'm concerned about is that spot of hatred which the McCain campaign seems intent on stirring up.
There are loose nuts in this nation. We all know that, and there is no way to get rid of them. However, the last thing we as a nation need is for them to become riled up, especially at rallies where they are given official condolence, of a sort.
I have no need to paint for you a picture of the violence that is inherent in American politics. You're older than I am and, as a result, lived through the last great wave of it. What I'm personally terrified of is the thought of one of these wing nuts, after the election is over, attempting to take electoral action into their own hands.
This is all the more pressing with the economy sinking lower and lower. People have a tendency of moving to more extreme positions during times of instability, and we're currently wading into one (I say wading into, because I don't believe we've reached the bottom yet. I still doubt this will be another Great Depression, but I do suspect it will give the late 70s and early 80s a run for their money).
Of course, there is hope. FDR manages to die of health related issues, despite an attempt on his life in the days leading up to inauguration day. Teddy Roosevelt managed to survive in 1912 as well. One could even point out that Truman survived an ill-fated attempt on his own life by Puerto Rico nationalists.
If this fails to salve your fears, I suppose that its not meant too. I'm of the growing fear that McCain-Palin's sewing the seeds of racism, unintentionally or not, is going to end up reaping a harvest we'll all have to deal with. The thought bothers me greatly. However, I also have to assume that Obama knew the risks when he took his first steps into this race, and knows exactly what he's doing. And, considering the campaign he's run so far, I'm willing to say that if he's not greatly worried, neither should we.
apexxx:
that certainly does not make sense to call any Chicago team a Zephyr confused
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I would like to thank all of my friends who commented on my last blog. I can't tell you how invaluable the things that all of you said was to me. Thanks to all of you, I've been better able to figure out my priorities and get a clearer picture of where I'm at and where I want to be.

While the issues I wrote...
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frolic:
Thanks so much for the love on Sepulcher biggrin
mamet:
Actually, no. I'm an Eagles fan. My dad is from Pennsylvania, and everyone on that side of the family are Eagles fans, except my dad, who is a Steelers fan. We've always been hyper-competitive about sports, so we could never like the same teams. I chose the Eagles, naturally. He also had an affinity for the Cubs, hence the White Sox for me.
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At a time in my life when I should feel settled and at peace, I find myself confused and fearful. I'm questioning every aspect of my life. The scary part is that I don't have any definitive answers to any of the questions.

I'm nowhere near where I need and expect to be financially. I feel vulnerable as Hell when it comes to my future...
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gingerkiss:
oh honey you do seem to be in a very delicate situation and one I wouldn't general give advise on. However, since you requested my input I'll say just this... honesty. Be it to yourself and to her. It may be hard to do... fear of hurting feelings but think if more time went on and you still felt the same way or even "worse". Be gentle with your words and you can NEVER go wrong w/ honesty.

And reminder we are in a time when everyone is hurting cause of too little money. And everyone is subject to human emotions and thoughts of all sorts during life. Your never too mature to be vulnerable or confused.
kiss
mattacme:
My initial purpose in dropping by was to say I'm sorry your Sox didn't make it. I know it means a lot to you and I was looking forward to the matchup that we will now not get. Having looked at your post I think I will offer again how much I respect and appreciate you and admire your sincere candor, too. You may not feel like it but I tell you with a particular authority that you are a most courageous man. That said, you are clearly nearing or at a crossroads where the path your life takes over the next while will depend on all of your many strengths and good fortune. I could offer up advice, and it would be sincere, but you are already so articulate around your current status that anything I could add would be more of a load than a lightening.

I believe in you and your abilities and choice making. I am certain that you will find a path far more agreeable and appropriate than I ever would.

Just wait until next year.