Thanks for all the comments and messages, I'm slowly working my way through them at the moment now I'm feeling like my head's screwed on a (little) bit better...
I'm not killing myself.
But only because of my mum's reaction.
I couldn't do that to my family.
No matter how bad I think my life is, it wouln't be anywhere near as awful as... Read More
Btw i just read your last and most recent blog posts and i have a good idea where you're coming from so if you ever need to chat like wing me a message or whatever
Xx
First off, thank you so much to everyone that commented my last blog. You're all so sweet. Things just got to me the other night, I was angry and upset and depressed and jealous and horrified all at the same time. And yes, it was over my ex. I really really miss him. I don't know what to do anymore, things are pretty difficult right... Read More
Wow, everyone's been soooo sweet to me since I returned, it's so nice being back!
For anyone that hasn't checked them out yet (and why fucking not?!), I have a new set of photos I took on Bank Holiday Monday, just me arsing about with a camera, nothing special.
But I'd appreciate some comments, constructive criticism is also appreciated!
Yup, it's Spider.
Or Wilona as I now like to be called.
I should probably explain why I've been absent for so long...
Basically, I've been having a really rough few months, breaking up with my long-term boyfriend, moving back into my parents house, looking for a new job, spiralling back into depression, all sorts of shit.
I've just had to... Read More
Hey.
I just wanted to apologise to everyone for not really being around very much.
Things are just a bit messed up at the moment.
I'm unemployed, dossing around and partying mostly.
My family act like they're ashamed of me.
Everyone wants to have a little dig at me, everyone wants to tell me what to do and how I should be.
I'm fucking sick... Read More
Well....
I moved out and it's over for real this time =(
He punched me.
It didn't hurt very much.
But that's not the point is it?
I don't think I could ever get back with him after that so i reckon i should stop trying to please him...
Maybe.
I really messed up my relationship because of it.
And I became someone I didn't really want to be.
I was slutty, and disrespectful, and I hid things from my boyfriend.
I'd really love to be a Suicide Girl, and maybe one day I'll come crawling back if it doesn't all work out.
But I'm willing to give love one last... Read More
Aww, add me on Myspace so we don't lose touch! MySpace.com/LuxieDarko
It's completely understandable that you'd choose your b/f over SG. Naked girls are fun, but they can't cuddle and cover you in kisses when you need them most. Good luck with your relationship, hon!
I sincerely hope you are reading all of the messages here... have you seen how many people are concerned for you?
Have you taken everything that they're writing to heart?
Seems to me that if you were such a horrible person, there probably wouldn't be a single response here.
Does this make us all horrible people for caring about you?
If we're not, then you're not... simple as that.
I can't express myself any better than all of the people who have written in before me; go back and read them again.
Don't do anything drastic; you need some time and distance from this to be able to see things for what they really are.
Let us know what else we can do for you; you are very well thought of here, obviously, and we want to make sure you're going to be okay.
I'm not like well... apparently most people here... where I think any and all online flirtation is always ok. There has to be some limits, and they have to be based on how comfortable the person you are in a real relationship may be with all of it.
But with that said, I've seen a lot of your flirtation and it all seemed very innocent to me. And either way, hacking into a private account shows a lack of trust that would have been an issue eventually anyway. Better off without him.
You are most definitely not a bad person. No one should try to control what you want to do, what friends you see or talk to. You need to be yourself... A mature person would recognize that and let you grow and be who you are without trying to control you.
Stay strong and know that there are people all over the world that love you and care for you.
Xx