Sometimes I feel like I would do anything to get a girl to tell me she likes me. Such desperation clouds my mind like a blanket of insanity that I feel like nothing is worth it if I am unloved, so why not do anything if only for a brief moment of approval before I self-destruct? Moments like that scare me. If humans are infinitely...
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roxxee:
We are moving to Wiesbaden. Unfortunately, I don't speak a word of German. But, I'm gonna take some classes on base. 
Btw, personaly, I don't believe in Hell. I know what it's like to feel like you have no identity without a significant other. It's a terrible place to feel that you are alone and unloved. I was married to a horrible, sadistic man and felt that way all the time. I would have and sometimes did anything to get his approval, just because I wanted to be loved. That didn't make me evil. It made me desperate and broken. I must tell you from personal experience that the person you WANT to be with will love you for who you are and expect nothing but you, yourself. I know everything I'm saying is pretty worn out but I swear it's true. 
Btw, personaly, I don't believe in Hell. I know what it's like to feel like you have no identity without a significant other. It's a terrible place to feel that you are alone and unloved. I was married to a horrible, sadistic man and felt that way all the time. I would have and sometimes did anything to get his approval, just because I wanted to be loved. That didn't make me evil. It made me desperate and broken. I must tell you from personal experience that the person you WANT to be with will love you for who you are and expect nothing but you, yourself. I know everything I'm saying is pretty worn out but I swear it's true. Today I flirted with my friend's mom, lusted after his incredibly hot sister, drank Chimay ale, a fine quality beer, bought steaks for my friends to barbeque, got sunburnt at a parade, held a baby for a good long time, told a young girl about why picking flowers is not as good an Idea as letting them grow, and told an accused shoplifter that mebee...
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dhill1:
sounds like you had a full day. All i did was work and take the dogs for a walk.
neon:
sorry. i didn't know they were all your threads. i was just putting them in the dumb threads. whoops. 
Feels like a good day for cooking. Think I'll broil some chicken and make a garlic chiken rotini casserole with brocolli and portobello mushroom alfredo sauce. And cake. Yes, but what cake? German chocolate? Swiss chocolate? Devil's food? Yellow? Gotta use the caramel frosting I bought, so mebee swiss chocolate with chocolate on the sides and caramel on the top and in the middle. Now,...
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violencejack:
Whip me, beat me, eat me, baby, I'm an egg...
Hmm, the evil math homework I have been procrastinating for weeks is finally due. Sweet suffering, like the dishes, you don't wanna but you know you have to. I burned a copy of Oh My Goddess to give to Amanda, I so hope she watches it, unlike my punk ass friends who refuse to believe cartoons can be cool.
While I was at the haircut...
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roxxee:
((HUGS)) to you too!
Good, bad,...I'm the guy with the gun.
Whohoo! Let us dance round the fire gleefully, as the world burns.
My poor puny ranger is level 36, and my mage 34. I must go forth to the land of norrath and make them powerful. I get so sick of playing druid, sure, he's 55 and tough, but he's like a cross between a weak cleric and a weak magician, jack of all trades,...
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My poor puny ranger is level 36, and my mage 34. I must go forth to the land of norrath and make them powerful. I get so sick of playing druid, sure, he's 55 and tough, but he's like a cross between a weak cleric and a weak magician, jack of all trades,...
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b4byl0n:
o_0
imma just ask a stupid ques.. which game?
imma just ask a stupid ques.. which game?
violencejack:
Everquest
Je suis le violent resultat de moi,
Besoin tu exister
Hmm. Wonder how bad a translation that is.
The days breath across my vision like phantoms, here and gone, gone and here. Father, why do you persecute me so? Give me the cold silence of the depths of space, the peaceful nothingness of nonexistence. Eternity is too much for me. I am just a child...
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Besoin tu exister
Hmm. Wonder how bad a translation that is.
The days breath across my vision like phantoms, here and gone, gone and here. Father, why do you persecute me so? Give me the cold silence of the depths of space, the peaceful nothingness of nonexistence. Eternity is too much for me. I am just a child...
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edea:
hey thanks for the recipe!!!! I'll have to make it sometime
I am the violent expression of me,
Wanting you to be
If the night were a goddess, she would have long black hair bejeweled with tiny diamond stars. Her skin would be the palest white, like the silvery glowing moon. Her eyes would be like pools of infinite shadow, the kind you could lose your soul in. She would walk the sky in silence, wearing...
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Wanting you to be
If the night were a goddess, she would have long black hair bejeweled with tiny diamond stars. Her skin would be the palest white, like the silvery glowing moon. Her eyes would be like pools of infinite shadow, the kind you could lose your soul in. She would walk the sky in silence, wearing...
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edea:
MMMMM cheesecake!!!!!
my fav!!!!!!!
Hey make me one!!!!!
my fav!!!!!!!
Hey make me one!!!!!
Ugh. Call me grumptastic. I feel like crap today. I want to blame it on yesterday's flame war and no sleep. Think I'll crawl under a shell and pretend not to exist, maybe if I ignore it, everything will go away. Yes, everything beyond these four little walls fade into nothingness, that will be good.
Much like Winona Rider in Girl Interrupted, I once got...
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violencejack:
Incomprehensible madness. Whatever does she mean?
Bah, the fact that I am still alive proves god hates me. Bring on the fire, big chief, but keep in mind eternity is plenty o time to get used to it, and sooner or later, it will just get boring.
Bah, the fact that I am still alive proves god hates me. Bring on the fire, big chief, but keep in mind eternity is plenty o time to get used to it, and sooner or later, it will just get boring.
tastysoup:
eh dont worry about her she's probably a bitch anyway. feel better kid
Still too damn hot. Where is the AC repair person?
I slept late and missed Human Sexuality, no big loss. I don't think I have learned much there, anyways. I have tater tots, and morgan is prettier than I thought, and soon there will be japanese cartoons on, but what a waste? shouldn't I do something useful? Maybe I'll do lots of pushups and get...
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I slept late and missed Human Sexuality, no big loss. I don't think I have learned much there, anyways. I have tater tots, and morgan is prettier than I thought, and soon there will be japanese cartoons on, but what a waste? shouldn't I do something useful? Maybe I'll do lots of pushups and get...
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violencejack:
Icepop 32 and 30 are nice shots, I think your blue eyes need more camera time. I honestly just had never looked at your pics before. Assume that I went and looked now because intelligence is sexy, eh?
[Edited on Apr 29, 2003]
[Edited on Apr 29, 2003]
morgan:
Note: tis better to reply in the journal of whoever posts to you
Something about the camera or the way the sets so far have been set up has been lacking in the eye showing off, I agree. Some of the more recent ones have more eye in 'em but it'll be a while until they go up.
Something about the camera or the way the sets so far have been set up has been lacking in the eye showing off, I agree. Some of the more recent ones have more eye in 'em but it'll be a while until they go up.
It's too damn hot. I've signed up for EMT classes this summer, gotta get my car tagged and titled so I can drive it. The Nasty Girl weekend was boring as usual, went to an M16 range and plinked a bit, then sat around all day and all night and half the next morning until they finally saw fit to set me free. On the...
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Ug, I have to go work for the Nasty Girls tomarrow. 
Still, they do pay me to go to college, which doesn't suck. Well, guess I will eat the last of the chocolate cake I made and watch Japanese cartoons all day, since all my homework is actually done for once. Yu-Gi-Oh, Yu Yu Hakusho, Ruroni Kenshin, its all good. Mebee some G-Gundam. Oh, yes,...
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Still, they do pay me to go to college, which doesn't suck. Well, guess I will eat the last of the chocolate cake I made and watch Japanese cartoons all day, since all my homework is actually done for once. Yu-Gi-Oh, Yu Yu Hakusho, Ruroni Kenshin, its all good. Mebee some G-Gundam. Oh, yes,... Read More
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dg:
Comics are VERY cool
Esp Jhonen and Roman comics
Esp Jhonen and Roman comics
night1:
hey man...welcome to the Hentai group
agreed...most Japanese cartoons are pretty damn cool
but then, that's why we like Hentai...well...that and the porn
agreed...most Japanese cartoons are pretty damn cool
but then, that's why we like Hentai...well...that and the porn