vassago

damn, has it been awhile.

suddenly, i give a damn..

If you stay away from dope for a bit, your libido comes back. great.

i had a dream.

white walls, brown trim
a shower
and four empty needles.

there was also a girl,
more fearsome and beautiful than anything i could imagine by day.

sometimes dreams dictate exaclty what we should be doing.

i wish i were worth the lame fuck it took to create me.

there, I have said it.

Ive been repainting my condo for a few days now.
Ive just turned my kitchen deep orange.

it actually looks quite good.. with the deep green countertops and all.

I am the only person in Detroit not obsessed with watching the movie 8 mile.

The dragon is the only thing that quiets the madness anymore. I cant expect anyone to understand, though I am sure im not alone in this.

There is far too much going on.

yes, it is time to isolate myself... the perfect alternative to being understood.

Today has been a bit more tolerable.
I am certainly looking forward to getting back into classes.

I suppose that since inez left this site, I dont know a single person on here. hm.

ill never do what i want to.
mine is owned by a selfish, rotten bitch.

i guess this is how sexist hate happens.

another day of fighting with a woman who will never love me.

some people are too stupid to get it.

"Timmy, tah, tah...."


I dont get it.
She mentions that it upsets her that I intended to see others. But she refused to think about a monogomous relationship (let alone intimate) with me.

how can i be anything but stupid?

"wear the grudge like a...
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I feel totally strung.
I cannot sleep.

Demons from last night seem to plague me still.
dont do H.

I really wish i wasnt here alone.
Any sort of resilliance or strength has drained from me in the past few hours.
...I dont really even know why.


I miss Inez...

i dont feel so well, whatever we took last night.. was not what we were sold.

what a pathetic experience.

today, i feel drained.

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I cannot find sleep, or it cannot find me.

either way. Im not resting.

I took a line earlier, maybe that is it.
Doubtful, Ive done it before, and I have never been anxious like this.

I was fine, then my head hit the pillow. Instantly, a flood of horrified emotions hit me, and clips from the hellified nightmares of last evening....
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