Monday May 05, 2003

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A phone call tonight.
This was a hone call that will change everything.

Maybe I actually will heal.


I have added several pics to the "My Pics" section.
Otherwise, I have nothing to tell tonight.

I am a very tired boy.
saturn1:
i am exhausted as well. and it's only the second day in the first week. not a good sign.

i hope the call is concerning who i think it is and it does bring some sort of healing.
thalia1:
that sounds really positive. i truly hope that phone call helps.
take care of yourself.
xoxo thalia

Sunday May 04, 2003

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Holly, Thora... hm.. no.
I want a new set from Voltaire, or DebraJean.

now.


Ive decided im going to load my "MY Pics" section up with some art, and some filth. Yeah.
copyrighted filth.

I have been working so much that I haven't had enough time to become idle or insanely sad in days.
I guess this overwhelming job is a good thing.
I have...
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saturn1:
you know the offer for me to stay with you if you get sick is always open no matter how busy i am.
thalia1:
i wish you all the luck in the world.
take care of yourself please.
xoxo thalia

you should really take inez up on that offer.....withdrawal is a bitch!

Wednesday Apr 30, 2003

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Yesterday, I stopped at a local gastation for a soda.
The place that I stopped at was just a few blocks from my home.I stop there often
.
As I was looking over the cooler, trying to make a decision, I noticed a man to my left. He was black man, with a shaved head. He was slightly taller than me, and a lot heavier....
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cutthekidinhalf:
awww poor boy...I guess that's what u get when u r soo beautiful...I don;'t blame that guy awww
hel:
sprite remix scares me, but tony sounds scarier... see thats how beautiful you are... you need to start carrying a stick....

:hel:

Monday Apr 21, 2003

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Something You Should Know


My tiny form lends itself to a prayer on your lips
kisses and thoughts at my stomach,
so am I wrapped over you

You worship with eyes and womb,
you offer a gift to me that could never die,
And feel with your soul what remains of this sick blade
still buried in my heart.

I could never be yours.
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saturn1:
i miss you. it seems that is gets shorter and shorter in between the misses.
hel:
everytime i see a new pic of you i swoon... beautiful boy... well anyhow i made it home smile

:hel:

Friday Apr 18, 2003

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People tonight seemed extra vile. And by seeming, I mean completely disgusting. From the way that fat girls were crammed into "sexy" clothes and trying to find cock, to the way that "cock" was wandering around in droves, bumping, grunting, and posturing; futiley competing for the right of insemination.

Of course, I am probably only this mean because I hate myself.

yeah, let's go with...
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thalia1:
well, i am worried as well.
but i will not pity you.
we have all been through shit like this at one point or aniother and managed to pull through it. as much as it hurts, we know that life fucking goes on. there are millions of people out there, a million possibilities, a million new possible friends and a million new possible relationships. look at inez, she obviously cares for you. do you not see it? maybe i am being too harsh....i suppose i am just frustrated....maybe that's what you want..........i will be quiet now.
there are people who care.....remember that.
xoxo thalia

[Edited on Apr 19, 2003]
cutthekidinhalf:
People can be disgusting...yeah.. but you can try to care less about those shit people,, who cares,,, I mean ,, you don't have to waste ur time with those pps...
or u can decide to be an ant ...just buzzing aroun with those little antenas..u don't have to care others..but just do ur own work...You are going through lots of shit right now , I c. yeah more shit you go through ~ more strong you get.. and it is up to you if u want to be colder person or warmer person...

The more you drive less intelligent get~

Tuesday Apr 15, 2003

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So, I have been considering posting a set to the "SuicideBoys" group.
Maybe even an extensive one on my website.

sort of seems like fun...

does that sound like something anyone would be interested in?

If so, I already have a small set on my server.
Just email me, or post here, and I might send the link.

let me know what you think....
saturn1:
i'll shoot some for you too, if you want.

Thursday Apr 10, 2003

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Man, I am buried in projects.
I might not go out this weekend.

Today, I watched as some drunk retard pissed off the top level of the college parking structure.
While doing so, he screemed alot about his urine, and drunkeness and his hate for police.
What a thinker....


cutthekidinhalf:
so am I...
I have a presentation for my linguistic/anthro class... I'm kinda screwed...
some bums are big thinkers...some of them are just want to be friends..some of them just want to get some money for their booze...
Oh, you should come to Soup kitchen..for volunteering.,...those bums are very very interesting!!
good luck on ur projects,,,
saturn1:
i miss you. but i haven't i seen you recently?

i will call you tonight. maybe we can work together this weekend or something. i have a lot of design work to do.

Monday Apr 07, 2003

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This is scary, offensive, and reflective of how I feel of the way most men objectifiy the sexuality of women...

Robbie the Lust Slug


Salty and angry, it pushes out of his pants.
It needs to hurt a little girl.
It has a thin, slimy film and engorged veins.

This fat thing reflects his idiot rage,
his misled sense of false awareness.

It is a...
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saturn1:
you're my favorite boy, love. and i know. it's really hard for me right now, though, and you're gone. but we've discussed this. you know i adore you.

i still like how you write even when it feels ugly.

[Edited on Apr 08, 2003]

Friday Apr 04, 2003

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I dreamt last night.. I dreamt about this war.
I dreamt that, within the year, this war would become nuclear.

Has anyone noticed that we have subdued and occupied about 70% of Iraq at this point?
Beyond that, has anyone noticed that we still haven't found any evidence NbC weapons?

What if Iraq turns out to not have WmD, what then?
What could then be...
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cutthekidinhalf:
hmm nice point...
yeah,, oh what are they gonna say? I know I know
they will say " OOps ma bad,, well we just wanted to prepare..for 'in case' when they have nbc..."
because u know, American government gets paranoid,, reacts quackily and makes tones of mistakes...
but all those mistakes they have made... they always have really good manulative excuses( they call it justice, right???)

Well they do that over and over..u know why? cause those people with huge Amrican flags in their front porches,,,they do love US government and they will support them anyways...United my ass stand... yeah damn right~

[Edited on Apr 05, 2003]
cutthekidinhalf:
media can be so manipulative...
i just watched news and they said 79 American soldiers got killed so far.. I mean I respect those ones who sacrified their lives...but look what US media trying to say... they are saying Iraqis are BAD...
they never report how many Iraqis AMerican soldiers killed... they are estimating around couple thousands..yeah civilians are included!!!yea yea.... so AMerican soldiers are so strong and bad too,, right??

Tuesday Mar 25, 2003

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I am still a slave.
Eyes closed, bent at the waist.

What if Iraqi Army commanders follow their orders, and they use deployed chemical weaponry when the Coalition armies reach Bagdhad?
I doubt we will retaliate with chemical weapons. They are illegal by international law.
However, I can find nothing that states that nuclear weapons are illegal.
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cutthekidinhalf:
I am much confused...
I don;t want any war..because i don't wanna see anyone dies....whoever they are...
Is this all about economy?
is it all about oil?
Is bush a real international terrorist?
or it's just about battle of showing who is stronger...

damn did you see that soldier lady was was captured by Iraqi soldiers?
she looked very very frightened,,,
Is any war really necessary???
hel:
hi hello aloha bonjour salut hola

Monday Mar 24, 2003

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After I left City Club....

I ran into Nadine. Nadine is a little Goddess.
She convinced me to meet her at the works.

Shortly after arriving at The Works, I came upon Kevin Fisher.
I have missed him.
In his company was Johnna. She damn near wet herself when she first saw.

What a reaction..

She threw her arms around me and demanded, without explanation,...
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saturn1:
and because of what you think of yourself more than anything.
hel:
no babydoll, you're still on ,my list the site has a new feature now where the girls list are secret, no one can see them but us. i swear your still on there though. go here for proof http://suicidegirls.com/boards/The%20Site/13678/

:hel:

Monday Mar 17, 2003

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I am that little motion inside a painful, empty skull.

I consort with pain, and lust, and some fuck-pigs.

My baby behind me, I have to take the cold, dead hand of another.
My trememdous belly can boast only fear and another declaration of the unwanted.
saturn1:
where are you ... i can only sleep with someone in the bed with me, i hate it.

i think you should write more if you don't already
hel:
very nice

:hel:
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