Monday Jul 28, 2003

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I don't feel so great right now... but what else is new, right?
I have to get going in a minute.. make it to the methadone clinic and then to school for a make up exam.

I have a million things to finish doing.

I don't know how any of you do it.. this whole living thing. I can hardly be awake without grabbing a...
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saturn1:
i have a bad temper. nevermind.

[Edited on Jul 29, 2003]
thalia1:
thanks for the lovely comments.
sweetie, i seriously think you need a vacation!! smile
anything to have a happy entry ( ....maybe i am be just a tiny bit selfish...hmm...smile)
xoxo thalia

Friday Jul 25, 2003

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waking up early and going to the Ozzfest.
Im going alone.. noone would/ could go with me.
its going to be wierd going all alone, I have like no friends left.

'K' called tonight. I cried alot.
She talked alot about her new boyfriend. he's wonderful.
... yeah, i'll bet he is.
wish I could be wonderful.

I wish I could hide under a rock...
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dolorian:
kiss

i'd go with you if i didn't live a million miles away.
why do you keep taking her phone calls if it just upsets you so much? and you are wonderful

Tuesday Jul 22, 2003

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I sort of figured that when the summer came, It might go away. I thought I might have an easier time fighting my way out of this whole thing. Instead, this hellish depressio has somehow forced me to blink and miss half of my summer.
I am still hacking myself up on the bathroom floor.

I still don't have answers.
I still have nothing to...
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Wednesday Jul 16, 2003

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ever hit that strange point where enough is actually enough?

the odd part is, i really do know where to go from here.

I miss you, Mel.
thalia1:
at least you now know where to go.
all the luck in the world to you.
hope you are taking good care of yourself.
xoxo thalia

p.s.- have you heard anything from sweet inez??
cutthekidinhalf:
hey i asked my friend , and he said that was same company name. I think they are the same companies.. but they might be using same company name.. I just want to look out for ya..
When it is shady.. u will know.. yeah
R

[Edited on Jul 21, 2003]

Friday Jul 11, 2003

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yeah, it has been a LONG time since I have posted on here. But, Ive been a sad, busy boy.

So much is going on right now, and I am so confused. I suppose that it doesn't help that I have decided to quit heroin right on the middle of some big time stress.

Let me tell you, kicking H sucks.
It sucks really bad....
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dolorian:
no need for apologies, sweetie. i know what you're going through. i just worry sometimes. especially when you don't call me back. 'cause that's just weird. anyway, i miss you too. alot. and of course i don't "mind" if you visit me. we've only talked about it a million times. i'll call you soon... please take care of yourself.
xoxo
kiss

[Edited on Jul 12, 2003]

Tuesday Jun 24, 2003

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I have spent all day indoors writing my anthropology final. it turned out quite good, if I say so myself. I put the work off, and I am a little suprised that I finished.

I am thinking that it is time to update hte content on my site.. so ill get to that this or next week.

i heard from Kat today.
I have never...
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saturn1:
tsk tsk

Tuesday Jun 17, 2003

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My birthday is June 19th.

I don't want to be older. I almost want to pass away.. just so that in a small respect, I can be a child forever, you know?

I miss being tiny.
I miss being so small that the world actually seemed big. I miss being a tiny little WoP that didn't hate anything and hadn't yet been raped or beaten...
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tattva:
I've always felt that while we're very young we're actually closer to death. In the sense of having just been reborn....if you believe that sort of thing.....with everything being new as a child, things are just more interesting,...I hope that feeling comes back in death.
flux:
well, in a manner totally incongruous with the nature of your post, happy fucking birthday. smile

Monday Jun 16, 2003

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so.. I am in CiS (computer sciences) class.
I am getting an 'A ' here, but I hate this class.
Surprising, huh?

I have a test in ten minutes.
I didn't know it was today.
Head way up in the clouds, always.

Dolorian is running away to see the west coast in just a little while. Sad boy. I am really going to miss you....
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saturn1:
i feel like hell but going to work helped. thank you. i care about you more than you know.

jason is planning on moving to san francisco in a month or so. if i don't sign a lease in september i may be following him soon. i really want out of michigan. but i'm not thinking very rationally right now so maybe i will sign that lease in a week. blegh.

[Edited on Jun 16, 2003]

Monday Jun 16, 2003

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why are men so gross?
Like, I looked at some of the really aggressively flirty guys from this site, and from city club, and from their appearences, it is clear why they are so desperate.

Am I all alone in noticing how icky men usually are?? Like, they are always lumpy and usually reek of testosterone. And it really sucks, because they always seem to...
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vim:
dude!!...why do i feel like you just called me a muscle coated, homophobe, swelled bellied, rapist minded, control freak testosterone zombie???

hmm...anyhoo, have a nice weekwink
saturn1:
well , if you would reach out to me and not the people that you do then perhaps you'd feel different. but i don't know. maybe not.

Sunday Jun 15, 2003

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it is over.

my carpet needs to be vacuumed.
that is my highest curren thought.
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