My sleep was full of strange and disturbing dreams... I woke up this morning feeling uneasy... There is alot on my mind... I'm kinda bummed out today...
I've mostly been busy with school... but that is busy-ness, I suppose... a very crappy kind, but busy-ness nonetheless. Got a lot of downtime, and a whole lot of time spent online or on the phone gabbing with my woman. The long-distance thing is pretty awful, but I'm happier than I've been in... ever.
It's enough to know she's out there somewhere.
Thanks for your well-wishes. Every little bit helps. And I hope you get your brain cleared out. Dreams can be unsettling, to say the least...
Hmmmmmmm.... I left my panties at work yesterday.... I found 20 extra dollars in my purse, that I know was not there before.....Yesterday I did not smoke any cigarettes..... I forgot to excercise though...... Today is my day off..... I have four days off..... I'm supposed to go to a photoshoot today, but I'm going to back out, because of that girl who was murdered,... Read More
I pussied out on trying the valerian root , cause you said it tasted like she-it, But the multivitamin is happening. ...Have you heard of yohimbe root? ...Supposedly it increases a males sperm count by like 150%, which sounds interesting in theory, but the problem w/ the world is that there is already way too much testosterone...I hope you take a bodyguard, or some friends w/ you while you hump the Hollywierd hills, because it's just not safe out there anymore. ...It really sucks! ... I'm sure Valentinos mansion is a trip! Can you imagine the parties/orgies that went on around there, in the good old days? I'll bet Fatty Arbuckle, Charlie Chaplin, and Faye Wray gigged out there. ...be safe Voltaire!
What are you giving up for lent? Yesterday was fat tuesday, the day of rich living before the fast/sacrifice....
I'm giving up being lazy, and starting a workout routine. Yesterday I only smoked 1/2 a cigarettte, but I never smoke more than 3 a day, so maybe I'll give that up too.....
A break is deffintely an order. Ifigure, If I'm going to have that kind of reaction to someones idiotic comment then, I really do need a break. Yesterday was just the last straw. He's not the first, and the only reason you're hearing about it now, is because I'm not some whiny girl that will ask spooky to boot him. But I don't like people... Read More
I don't see how someone could fail to recognize a beautiful face like yours, but everyone needs a vacation now and again. People are jerks, and I'm finding that people on the internet are not only no better, but shielded by a false anonymity. I hope this pompous ass has not tainted your view of the SG community as a whole and I await your return.
Does anyone remember the movie Bambi? does anyone remember the best quote in that whole movie? No? Allow me to enlighten you. " If you can't say anything nice then don't say anything at all." which I have cleverly modernized like this:" If you can't say anything nice, shut the fuck up"
I really hate it when people forget thier manners, in order to give... Read More
if you stopped sending sets in some of us would be upset(like me). you are deffenitely one of the most beautiful girls on this site. and yeah you are right. this site is starting to look more and more mainstream and the boards are getting more and more annoying but i still come back for the girls and members that i do like. i wish you a wonderful day and i think you're beautiful no matter what you do with your hair.
i'm still fairly new, but girls like you, marie, and chloe are the reason I joined this site and decided to apply to be a SG. it is totally out of bounds for any member (or person for that matter) to state a preference about your appearence [i.e. "i prefer you this way"]. i do hope you come back, you're so lovely. and i was looking forward to getting to know you so much.
I think I work harder on my days off than I do on days I'm scheduled to work.... Yesterday I started editing pics for my SG set, and also the shoot I did with shard last weekend. Maybe it was the weekend before that.... not sure... but the pictures look really good, so I'm pleased. My back is fine. like I said, I've pulled that... Read More
i had a dream last night that you were the driver of the bus that takes me to campus every day (i hope that doesn't offend you, you were still cute as ever) and i got to talk to you, and we were friends, and it was fucking cool. so yeah, just wanted to let you know. and your journal entries are always awesome.
Ugh, I have to work again tonight... I'm so tired that I woke up at 2pm today, and I'm still tired.... last night was allright at work... I think Jumbo's is the best club I've ever worked at..... I've been really happy there... I don't even get fully naked. It's topless with pasties, so the focus is not so much on my naked body, ok... Read More
i knew i had seen you somewhere before, but i couldn't figure out where. then today i was flipping through some tattoo magazines and, lo and behold, there you are. that ROCKS! you are way cooler that i am.
This has nothing to do with your entry, I just felt like sharing....
Up around my dance class there's various dance related quotes, today this one cought my eye. It read...
"Let us read and let us dance, they are 2 amusements which will never do any harm to the world.
-Voltaire"
do you find that quote fits with your life at all? Just thought I'd throw it at you since you're Voltaire and the quote is from someone named Voltaire....
So I shot a new set a couple of days ago. I'm a girl scout selling cookies.... I just need to find time to edit pics...I've been working five days a week though, and Although the new schedule comes out today, I have no idea when my friday is...I've already worked five days in a row.....
I feel like I'm shedding different parts of myself....like... Read More
Today I had a sudden realization...and that realization was that If I get out, i might really live...... And I mean REALLY live... I mean I know This is only todays entry to you, but today, I choose to truly live..... I walk these streets and they are truly mine...
I love ALL of you....
xoxoxoxoxoxox- Voltaire
So I had to break down and call my mom about my ear infection. she said to use st john's wort oil. she was right, it did the trick.....
Work was fine. I really like the club that I work at. It's not about hustling there It's about giving a performance, which I really dig.....
God, I can't believe it's friday night, and I'm not... Read More
hold off on the banana-type plantain ...my mistake, shoulda told you I was talking about the herb-type plantain ...very different critters. The banana-type may actually exacerbate yer otitis. Get it in tincture if ya can (doesn't keep very well dry).
man, I blew it on the fingernail question ...got locked into thinking about minerals and completely overlooked the obvious ...DOH! ...only a smidge off on the colors tho'.
yep, hesse is a way good read ...I also just re-read siddhartha last month. I'm trying to get myself geared up for magister ludi but I keep spending my free time here. My fave of his is journey to the east ...I really like short and profound books.
YOU turned me on to KALE, i never had it before you talked about it.
so whole foods on third & fairfax makes an emerald sesame kale with tamari, garlic, ginger,sesame seed, olive oil and sesame oil, delicious!!!!!!
your cocktail waitress barbara and her daughter nadja used to come to my parties...
hope your ear feels better
My ear infection is starting to come back...ugh... I need to ask tommy sativa if he knows any thing... I'v'e never had an ear infection before. they sure hurt.
I wish I was my cat birch today.... all she does is eat and sleep, hang out and play with her mouse.
Tomorrow I go back to work. I'm kinda dreading it a little, because I'm... Read More
ear infections suck. i've had one and felt like i was walking with my head tilted to the side...
poor girl. take care of yourself. damn tommy sativa..
that dudes got some phat advice!!! i need to hook up with that dude to give me some wisdom....
tell us how it goes..
take care of yourself. get better.
I'm feeling better today, and I found some stuff for my ear infection.... Ijust got in from my shoot with my friend... we got some really good pictures.... my new hair looks really good on film, so that's a plus. I just found out that SG is out of solo sets of me so that means I get to send them another set. This also... Read More
i would love to see the pictures from the shoot that you're speaking of above. a beautiful girl in my favorite setting. i'm absolutely in love with abandoned buildings, traintracks and graffiti.
It's enough to know she's out there somewhere.
Thanks for your well-wishes. Every little bit helps. And I hope you get your brain cleared out. Dreams can be unsettling, to say the least...