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Unearth - Zombie Autopilot

it was last night on the midnight train back home. i ran into this one yet unfamiliar tone i know i should have known it was last night i knew i should have known. chaos. our busy minds asleep. we drudge across the land is this the coming end of our monarchy harmless. we meet increased demands. is this the life we all had in our dreams. our eternal nightmare all of us are blind to others. hide behind our plans to nothing. cage us. we weep in self defeat. all humanity is lost. in this eternal nightmares. all days are lost to conditioned zones. all days are lost to what we know free us. a piece of mind. gone are dreamers who strive to know. all of us are blind

Thank you for the birthday wishes.

Let me know if you've heard that song before, I'll upload a copy of it if not. Another thing you should let me know is what newer metal bands you've seen live. Humor me ;p


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I'll hella kidnap you yo!!!

I need to tidy up my basement first though.


make it a good weekend!!

\\m/

Hoohoo....nice term

4th of July...hmm. I think i may be rolling up north to Sedona for some drinking, bbq'ing, and swimming. I don't know though, I may end up just staying in town...

I will not kill you

I don't know how you do it, working out and dieting. I am so bad. Maybe if I had a personal trainer to kick my ass... But I am too poor.
I will be in Simi for the 4th, pigging out at my Mom's house. Of course, I am in charge of bringing dessert. You are welcome to come, but you will most certainly gain 10 lbs. (but we could work it off together, who needs boys? ha-ha)

I would in a heartbeat
I could use 10 grnd like no other!
Kelly

you have to stay married for 3 years to get divorced and keep them in the country.

I'm good. Things could be a lot better, but I'm not going to complain about it...

Take care

Official Fight Club Insult Post

your drama doesn't make you miore interesting.

Get The FUCK Off My Porch

3 years huh...

shit, i don't even know what i'm doing next month

OOH! super-cute!!

and probation for what!??!

is it a crime...to be so fine?!?!

d'OH!

Thats a pretty rad puppy, I am sorry its gone.

It really is better that you don't talk to him though. I know, I am just a random stranger, giving advice. Probably annonying at time. I just see you in a position I was once in and don't wish you any extra pain.

Good luck with things. You never know, the sun may come out tomorrow.

thanks for the comment i really appreciate :hug:

I wish I could give you a hug I think you need it more then me, Im pretty use to all the shit and am abele to be not so Emo as long as Im with people, I promise you one day I will come and see you.

The Humpty dance is your chance to do the hump! Oh god I want to go, take me with you! They played in Vail here recently and I missed the show. Let me know how it goes!

go to the gym then party
or get drunk now and watch movies. screw it dear

I dreamt about ghost last night...
I'm on a ghost roll now a days.

i did it. i told her i missed her sweet sweet ass

Hey girl, hope you feel better soon. Mr Cod not sit well?

I don't recall signing up for this "life", but I'm here soooooo ____________

adlib!

I haven't had any caffeine yet, sorry

What hurts?

hey super cute pic.

That is a great pic!
What is wrong with the way you dress? You look good.

Thanks V! peace, joy and love to ya

Okay V, I did a tarot reading for you. Like anything else, a reading doesn't tell you what to do, it just gives you some info so you can make informed decisions. I don't claim to be psychic, but I've found that a reading gives me something to think about. As the disclaimers always go, this reading isn't meant to replace medical help or your therapist.

I used the Celtic Cross reading because it's the most common and covers a lot of areas. I used the "Wheel of Change" deck because you're going through so many changes right now.

Card 1 is the heart of the matter, the central issue or focal point. The card here is the Queen of Cups. This is a loving, gentle woman who focuses on her emotions. I see this as representing you. The heart of the matter is your desire to give and receive love. You like to take care of other people and are hurt when they don't appreciate your love. You may wish to allow yourself to feel all your emotions right now. It won't be comfortable, but in the long run it'll help you get through things.

Card 2 is the opposing factor. Its something that works as an obstacle. This card is the Hermit 9. Right now you feel like getting away from everyone and everything in your life. In some cases, time away can be helpful, but in your case it is an obstacle. There are people around you who love you and will support you through this time. Seek them out rather than hiding away.

Card 3 is the source of the problem. The card is The Hierophant 5 reversed. This suggests that your ex may have been a controlling person who presented himself as a trustworthy "authority" figure. Someone you can go to when you need him. However, he's been presenting you with a false image (as you know only too well now). His lies form the basis of the situation, which makes sense given that the reading is about your relationship with him.

Card 4 is the recent past, something that is passing out of your life. The card is Strength 8. In the recent past, before everything went to hell, you probably felt as if everything (or most things anyway) was going well. Right now, that feeling is gone. That doesn't mean its gone forever. When we get hit upside the head by an ugly truth, it takes time to pull everything together again. This card just says that what you're feeling is normal. Hang in there, you have the inner strength to face this even though it doesn't feel that way right now.

Card 5 is a conscious influence. In essence, its what on your mind. The card is Temperance 14 reversed. Upright, this card stands for balance. Reversed it shows a lack of balance. Your emotions seem out of control, its hard to focus and you can't calm down. You feel as if everything is going to shit all at once. Again, this is normal for the situation you're in. Talk to trusted friends and make sure you take care of yourself during this time.

Card 6 is what is coming into your life at this time. The card is Ace of Disks reversed. This card says you need to make sure you are grounded and centered right now. That means trying to eat a healthy diet, moderate exercise, and maybe some meditating if you can. Just take the time to breath deeply and allow thoughts to move through your mind without focusing on them. Just seem them passing through and let them go.

Card 7 is you as you see yourself. This card is the High Priestess 2. You feel the need to withdraw and you probably feel that no one is really listening to right now. You know what you need to get through this, so listen to your intuition. You have a great deal of inner strength even if you don't feel like it right now.

Card 8 is you as others see you. This card is Judgement 20 reversed. You may feel that some people around you are judging you harshly. From your journal entries, it sounds like some of your friends aren't being supportive right now, so this card can refer to them. They may be judging you harshly because they don't really understand what you're going through. It may be best to avoid people like that and stick with people who understand you and will stay by your side.

Card 9 is a helpful suggestion for this situation. The card is Justice 11 reversed. This card suggests that you might be focused on feelings of revenge against your ex and it suggests that you *don't* follow through with these ideas (if you have them) as that will actually work in *his* favor. Its normal to have those feelings, just don't act on them. This also applies if you've been feeling like hurting yourself. Treat yourself with love and compassion. We all make mistakes, don't beat yourself up over it.

Card 10 is the potential outcome for this situation. Its only a possibility, because anything can happen in the future. This card is The Tower 16 reversed. This card says you've been through hell, everything you were sure about has been torn down and that's terribly painful. But what was really destroyed were the lies that were built around you. As painful as all of this is, you will get through it and move on. You have a chance now to make a new start. Take it and move forward. Living well is the best revenge.

You have a lot of Major Arcana cards in this reading - 8 out of 10 so this is a very important event in your life. You have a lot of challenges to face, but they are also opportunites to change your life for the better.

I hope this reading was helpful for you. Please let me know if you have any questions or comments. Remember, you're not in this alone...