trilobyte

Happy Birthday pal!

you need to have a birthday at least once a month, don't you think? for all of our benefits.

You know I wouldn't have guessed you'd be the type to go out and party in the dessert with hippies and neo hippies, but I hope you have fun. I've never been either but I think I would carry bad vibes with me, I'm a complainer, I'd just bring everyone down.

and I also hope you have fun on your eppic birthday adventure, I wish I could take part in the festivities. I can't wait for the pictures.

hi, lamb! i am checking in, sheepishly and with much guilt and shame over the neglect i've paid you and everyone who's been so great to me and i repay you all with treatment that doesn't come close to expressing how i actually feel about all you special people, especially you. sadly, i think i have to miss your big birthday event this weekend since i'm still barely scraping by with enough income to cover my gas and super inflated northern california living expenses. ggggrrrr.....i hate it up here and i miss it down there, but being with the daughter is good enough to make me complacent with the arrangement for now. more updates later. much love to you!

glad your fav movie did so well at the awards. it's nice to see an underdog, little-known movie like that win, lol.

man I know what you mean about beind able to read into other people's situations but not having a clue when it comes to yerself....I've decided that its just best to take it as it comes. I don't get hung up that way, and life just seems to be alot more fun.

Last night we discussed the need for backup designated photographers, for a couple reasons: 1) there's going to be 40+ people there, and one photographer couldn't possibly capture all the insanity. 2) the odds are good that any designated photographer is likely going to be heavily involved in the debauchery and may lose the ability to properly function a camera before the night is over. So yeah, we'll be sure to get enough photos to piece together all the memories you want to piece together, and probably a few of the ones you'd be perfectly happy letting slip into oblivion.

Last night was a ton of fun, thanks for adding to the insanity.

Here's the link to the GOOGLISM. It's just a silly little thing. When i search my name i get:

"Wynetta is risk averse. "

**Hahaa--it knows me so well!



Here's another fun thing...
Bubblewrap...the "manic" setting is recommended for frustrating days.

Wow! I've never had a designated pimp on my birthday..that's sweet! Oh and the girl is super cute!

oh realllllllllly.

you are!!
dont ever let anyone tell you different.

and HORRAY for heart skips.
i hope it all works out superfantastic.
xoxo

don't let the man keep you down.


[Edited on Feb 23, 2004 8:47PM]

Picture one?? YES! a big SCREW OFF on yer forehead would be stellar!!

nono! fuck you!

How was your nite? I was too exhausted from work and the rain to try to go out. You find your girl?

Don't forget I'm soliciting some help - - details are in my journal.

like a cross between the fluid from a ducks beak and a wheelchair cushion.

Sure, I guess. I decided homework took precedence over spending money I didn't have.
I tried to give you a call to see if you guys were still goign to be around for a while around 1ish, but no answer so I just went home.
-Being lame sometimes is what being a good student is occasionally about. Not tkaing advantage of the tiem I currently have to do good work in my classes would be ridiculously, criminally ignorant.
Dave

oh man..
i'll give you a brief version.

#1 - asshole. i was too young, he was too old. abusive and jealous/possesive.
#2 - loved a horseface more than me. he joined the airforce.
#3 - wasn't exactly a number. she was unrequited, but affected me deeply.
#4 - loved me so much that he wanted me to stop being a "freak." i loved him so much i told him to take a fucking hike. he joined the navy.
#5 - was really, really nice to me at a point in my life where i hated everything. at the darkest time of my life, he was my outlet. i was nothing but bad to him. we're still friends today.
#6 - was a secret. #5's best friend. lots of love, lots of secrecy, lots of tears when he couldn't do it anymore.
#7 - was a long distance (2.5 hours away) love that worked out really well. then he moved to nyc and we broke up within 2 weeks. and proceeded to break up over and over again for almost a year. he joined the airforce.
#8 - *swoon* still does it for me.
#9 - took my heart and crushed it. it's been a year since our breakup and i can't be in the same room with her. she tried to talk to me for the first time in a year last weekend and it sent me into a tailspin. most likely to be the one i'll never fully get over.

there might be another to add to this list soon. i dunno. we'll see.

ps - this was NOT fun.

grin... here's some..

#1 "The older man" - I was 12 and he was 26. You know, hey, looking back, isn't that illegal?

#2 "The child" - I was 19, he was 26 going on 16. A pathological liar, a kleptomaniac, a criminal history of theft and a hell-bentness towards doom that had him unemployed and living back at mom's house before it was all over. At least he had a good sense of humor about life. I've talked to him recently and he seems to be doing ok, but I don't particularly want to be close friends.

#3 "The older woman" - I was 19 and she was 31. It was JUST sex and it was horrid. Well. Because I just wanted sex, and she wanted a relationship, not to mention that she and i had incredibly dissimilar personalities and couldn't sustain a conversation for more than several minutes. It was short-lived, and needless to say, she ended up hating me afterward.

#4 "The only slightly older woman" - I was 16 and she was 18. I was desperately in love with her, but she decided my boyfriend of the time was making my relationship with her too complicated. (Go figure.) She's still one of my best friends, and we talk all the time.

i'm holding my breath with you darling. don't know what's up, but i hope everything turns out ok.

my midterms were ok. i kicked ass mainly, but one really sucked. one of the most difficult tests i've ever taken. people were actually muttering 'oh shit' under their breath while taking it. others were just laughing in disbelief. hoping for a curve, but no matter what there goes the g.p.a. oh well. and of course you may ask what i'm studying - traditional oriental medicine (i.e. acupuncture, herbs, and other various conjunctive modalities).

i hope you're sleeping again. i resolved my issue and ended my 3 week strech of insomnia. slept wonderfully the past 2 nights. life is good again.

oops...i started breathing again. sorry. i'll send some positive qi your way instead.

APPLE PAN!

i'm jealous!
bloodandtits in LA.
sigh.

Yeah, the meds make things better in some ways, but man i just went psyco today. I am on some kind of steroid to help grow back part of my jaw bone that had to be removed to get my teeth out and i think it is fucking with me. I have been feeling so angry for nothing, and i went off on my best friend today and ruined our relationship. Well sorry to vent like that. I hope your insomnia gets better man and thanks for the "get well"