trauma

So I got my teeth drilled and ground down to a nub. Four numbing shit-vials and I still felt the drill. My right side was asleep like a motherfucker after. With a crown on one of me molars, temporary that is. A Silver! Hard to chew food with it. Next week is the left side planing, no crowns. I wanted to punch the dentist (that...
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delicias... wishlist

Lazarus by Chimaira
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Eleven Five Ninety Four, Six Thirty morning
Woke up panicked, sweating, with a mouth full of vomit
No idea what could be wrong
Blew it off as this illness is common
Went back to sleep, then the phone rings
Fell to the ground
As the news was haunting...haunting

Lazarus ended his life, ungodly sacrifise, no reason why

Eleven Eight Ninety Four...
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That's three days i don't make it to school. I'm fucking tired. I rarely get no sleep and my eyes are bloodshot when I wake up. I need a big break from life.

And that same psycho still won't leave me alone. Now I'm getting irritated.

Be the judge...Which way on the bull am I sitting? I might not have done right at the time...
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Another random trip...

i'm sure you all know by now...

--GHOSTCHANT by Poison The Well
Sever your relation to those who are dependent on
breathing the obvious in it only turns your lips blue.
Turns your lips blue.
Unfastens inspiration from your throat.

No one around so you slash pretty skin.
You told me they drove you to it.

How many times do I have...
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A joke of a luau today for my bratty conceited 9-year old cousin. Who's in the image of her conceited mother. The stupid thing about a luau is that instead of yer traditional Hawaiian grub, you get some guy making tacos! WHAT THE FUCK? Put a pig underground, all the hawaiian goodies, and eat for fuck's sake.

A birthday party a week from today for...
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It's too early in the morning for me to be awake on a Friday. But I'm an early person. I feel like wandering around my house and the area for no apparent reason. It's just to ease my loneliness a bit, clear my head, and feel like nothing can bring me down (further anyway, besides losing health insurance )

I survived this week with just...
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Things to be done :
Find medical insurance or get a full-time job
Work to get a commercial class A DL with HAZMAT, Doubles/Triples. and Tank Endorsements
Try to get my AA (At this point, I'll be happy with an AA)
Maybe try to be more sociable.

Dame unas Coronas, Pacifico, and maybe some of that Newcastle Brown Ale shit...I'm willing to drink beer now....
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Go and read what I'm feeling now...it's scaring me. Current thoughts.

I didn't sleep...I found an old flame from middle school. She never knew I liked her.


Now I'm trouble.