I'm feeling quite low this evening, in truth most evenings. Much as i want to only put up fun and exciting things on here I think it may be quite a while before one of those posts!
I've lost myself very much again, inside a supposed duty and inside the anger that seems to be breeding at a ridiculous rate. My temper has never been...
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I've lost myself very much again, inside a supposed duty and inside the anger that seems to be breeding at a ridiculous rate. My temper has never been...
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Well....I signed back up, again! hehe! I can't resist a bargain it seems! Plus the reasons for not being on this site became quite void!!
I shan't make any such foolish promises as saying I will be on here a lot, or update all the time, or make more friends...cos I really won't!! keep doing the same, keep getting the same...so I'm sure i will!!!...
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I shan't make any such foolish promises as saying I will be on here a lot, or update all the time, or make more friends...cos I really won't!! keep doing the same, keep getting the same...so I'm sure i will!!!...
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strongbhoy:
Welcome back boyo!
eeeeup! spurs won and got a cup final on the weekend...good shit!!hehe!
not a lot new to say, my subscription is going to end again and i'm inclined to leave it to go for now. I'll proabably come back again soonish though. Just need to focus my time on some other stuff right now.
First college assessment came back...top of the class....get in! hehe! Still...
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not a lot new to say, my subscription is going to end again and i'm inclined to leave it to go for now. I'll proabably come back again soonish though. Just need to focus my time on some other stuff right now.
First college assessment came back...top of the class....get in! hehe! Still...
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strongbhoy:
Our dollar is so shit I'm surprised you aren't just on here for free!
I may be in the UK in late August, if you want to meet up for a pint or something before you sign off for good just send me your email so we can keep in touch.
Maybe go see Spurs!
I may be in the UK in late August, if you want to meet up for a pint or something before you sign off for good just send me your email so we can keep in touch.
Maybe go see Spurs!
benten:
my frind used to have the nightbreed game. i used to love the psychotic laugh you did if you ended up ikn the mental home, i can still remember it now! x x
Maaaaan!! I am pooped!!
Spent the day in London, A beautiful early morning stroll along the river side and over the millenium bridge to the Tate modern (sandwich in hand)...followed by the obligatory coffee (which I'm trying to phase out gradually!) Spent a few hours going through the collections and then sat for half an hour in the Rothko room. Best I've felt in a...
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Spent the day in London, A beautiful early morning stroll along the river side and over the millenium bridge to the Tate modern (sandwich in hand)...followed by the obligatory coffee (which I'm trying to phase out gradually!) Spent a few hours going through the collections and then sat for half an hour in the Rothko room. Best I've felt in a...
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lil_em:
The website link on your profile doesn't work - there's a t missing.
Sweet dreams xx
Sweet dreams xx
i tell you what....bloody women...that's all I'll say!!! 
lil_em:
You lot are just as bloody bad, believe me!!
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lil_em:
Thank you for the nice comment on my blog too 
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Alas I have returned!! Paris was awesome, loads of work done and loads of fun had. A few minor scrapes here and there - One boy arrested for pissing with the fire alarms at 4am and One tutor thrown head first through the coach windscreen when the brakes slammed on!!! Other than that...incident free!!hehe!!
I missed the Paris st.Germain game and also the courbet exhibit...
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I missed the Paris st.Germain game and also the courbet exhibit...
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lil_em:
Wow, those picturess are fucking awesome dude! Seriously, if I had the money and my house had already been decorated the way I want it, I would buy those to put up in my lounge, they're absolutely stunning!!
Glad you had a good time too; I would love to go to Paris again and your pictures have reminded me that I need to sort this out!!
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Glad you had a good time too; I would love to go to Paris again and your pictures have reminded me that I need to sort this out!!
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Having spent the evening trying desperately to relax (it's now an official prescription from a proper Doctor and everything!!hehe!) I saw a quote at the end of a program that has really summed up the things running about my head.
"We must become the change we want to see in the world."
Quite bloody right too - Too many times you see people preaching what...
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"We must become the change we want to see in the world."
Quite bloody right too - Too many times you see people preaching what...
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lil_em:
Wow, you have a lot to look forward to by the sounds of it; both short-term and long term
Enjoy Paris (I'm dead jealous!) and let us know how it went when you get back.
Have fun
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Enjoy Paris (I'm dead jealous!) and let us know how it went when you get back.
Have fun
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strongbhoy:
Ah! Your trip continues?
Although I don't like Le Guen from obvious Rangers connections (or maybe I should like him because that was on of their worst seasons in history) GO GO GO GO GO to the PSG game.
My friend is now a diehard PSG fan after seeing them play Lyon when he flew over last year. He's got crazy videos of the match, and the supporters rocking a car in the metro singing ALLEZ PARIS! over and over as they shook the car and punched out all the windows and lights.
Absolute insanity. He's now I think probably the lone American Member of one of their ultra groups.
Although I don't like Le Guen from obvious Rangers connections (or maybe I should like him because that was on of their worst seasons in history) GO GO GO GO GO to the PSG game.
My friend is now a diehard PSG fan after seeing them play Lyon when he flew over last year. He's got crazy videos of the match, and the supporters rocking a car in the metro singing ALLEZ PARIS! over and over as they shook the car and punched out all the windows and lights.
Absolute insanity. He's now I think probably the lone American Member of one of their ultra groups.
mp3 player...check....wine..check....phone...off!!! fucking sweet!!
I'm in paris in a week, Giacometti and courbet exhibits all booked up...will make double sure to get to the catacombs this time!!!
I spent today carving plaster heads, it's harder than i though!!hehe! bugger!x
I'm in paris in a week, Giacometti and courbet exhibits all booked up...will make double sure to get to the catacombs this time!!!
I spent today carving plaster heads, it's harder than i though!!hehe! bugger!x
The hardest thing I've been asked recently; "What do you want?" - I can't answer it, I just know that I don't have it. It has been pointed out to me that it may be easier to find should I decide what "it" actually is!!
Definitely food for thought!
Christmas was ridiculous here, my handicapped bro is basically a 6 foot toddler...makes for a lot...
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Definitely food for thought!
Christmas was ridiculous here, my handicapped bro is basically a 6 foot toddler...makes for a lot...
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lil_em:
I have often thought about that very question and the only thing I've ever been able to say in reply is that I don't know, but I do know what I don't want!
There are endless possibilities for what we do want in this world and I now believe it's actually impossible to make an informed decision on what you do want when there are so many things to choose from. We're only human afterall.
So, I gave up trying to answer that question and continue to live my life hoping to make the right decisions at the time and always hope for more, whatever that may be.
I hope you feel better soon and are well enough to celebrate New Year. I was supposed to be in Manchester from tomorrow for 3 days but after what's been going on lately, and the fact that Tessie isn't well, I have to break the news to my friend today. She's going to be soooooooo pissed, and I don't blame her
Happy New Year to you.
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There are endless possibilities for what we do want in this world and I now believe it's actually impossible to make an informed decision on what you do want when there are so many things to choose from. We're only human afterall.
So, I gave up trying to answer that question and continue to live my life hoping to make the right decisions at the time and always hope for more, whatever that may be.
I hope you feel better soon and are well enough to celebrate New Year. I was supposed to be in Manchester from tomorrow for 3 days but after what's been going on lately, and the fact that Tessie isn't well, I have to break the news to my friend today. She's going to be soooooooo pissed, and I don't blame her
Happy New Year to you.
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strongbhoy:
A film binge eh? I love those. I regularly have a holiday film binge of like 8 in a weekend.
This time around, it seems to be exploitation films...starting with Ilsa, She Wolf of the SS. Pretty wild.
This time around, it seems to be exploitation films...starting with Ilsa, She Wolf of the SS. Pretty wild.
Today...is a good day!!hehe!
All shows, current paintings, college terms, essays and projects are now complete. There is literally nothing needing to be done! this has not happened for a long long time!!
Tonight i actually took the liberty of sitting on my arse and doing nothing at all!! I watched TV, some massive asexual fellow was telling old ladies they look good naked....which was...
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All shows, current paintings, college terms, essays and projects are now complete. There is literally nothing needing to be done!
this has not happened for a long long time!!
Tonight i actually took the liberty of sitting on my arse and doing nothing at all!! I watched TV, some massive asexual fellow was telling old ladies they look good naked....which was...
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lil_em:
What a gorgeous, happy blog, thank you for sharing it, it made me smile
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chesca:
Cheers, appreciate it.
balls balls balls!! blody boxing!
I got a day off, yusssss!!! Good...shit!X
I got a day off, yusssss!!! Good...shit!X
strongbhoy:
Mayweather man. Best fighter this decade.
strongbhoy:
I don't know how much you follow the sport, but I admin the SG boxing group and we talk about all the big fights in there.
Things are a bit up in the air again at the minute. A million things all at once. Feels like a lot of change in the air, which I relish.
The last week has been one I would like to forget for my family, my cousin in the states was killed in a car accident. He was in the US army and was buried with...
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The last week has been one I would like to forget for my family, my cousin in the states was killed in a car accident. He was in the US army and was buried with...
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lil_em:
Hello!
Right, now that's out of the way, sorry to hear about your cousin, that really does suck. And how ironic that he should be on leave from a warzone too. My little brother is in the army and they're just waiting for him to turn 18 in June before they send him out to either Iraq or Afghanistan. It worries me sick but I know there's nothing I can do 
Christmas in 3 weeks is also shit. How has it crept up on me like that? I know I'm not the only one thinking that either! I'm guessing it's a sign that I'm getting older and apparently time goes even quicker the older you get, so that's something to look forward to, NOT!
Oh, gotta go, the bin men have just arrived and Tessie is going mental, I need to close the curtains until they've gone!
Byeeeeeeee
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Right, now that's out of the way, sorry to hear about your cousin, that really does suck. And how ironic that he should be on leave from a warzone too. My little brother is in the army and they're just waiting for him to turn 18 in June before they send him out to either Iraq or Afghanistan. It worries me sick but I know there's nothing I can do
Christmas in 3 weeks is also shit. How has it crept up on me like that? I know I'm not the only one thinking that either! I'm guessing it's a sign that I'm getting older and apparently time goes even quicker the older you get, so that's something to look forward to, NOT!
Oh, gotta go, the bin men have just arrived and Tessie is going mental, I need to close the curtains until they've gone!
Byeeeeeeee
x
For me, I knew the steps I had to do to get out of the funk, but the motivation to do it isn't there like you think it would be.
I think its all pretty normal, as we get older and real life hits us all and adult problems arise.
Recognizing it is the start, then action.
So they let you go and sketch at the various museums? That's actually pretty cool. The art museum in the city I'm in now is actually fairly good and I have never seen so many people painting before. I went in February and there might have been...twenty or so people scattered through the museum painting various works (and rather well I might add).
From the different answers I've received from friends and family...there seem to be at least 15 different ways to approach the question.