Had a pretty blah weekend. Didn't do much. Life is just kinda droning on lately. Same pitfalls I hit over and over. The more I think of things being like they used to be, the further away they seem to regain. I need to get out more because my craziness is just futher multiplied by being cooped inside most of the time. And being inside... Read More
So the game testing is still going. We're supposed to be delivering soon so I don't know how much longer I'll have this job after this project is up. I dunno. I guess I need to start looking for another job nowish.
I don't really know what I'm doing any more. Not much direction in any path. I just kinda feel like I'm drifting along... Read More
So I got a job at Vivendi Games as a QA Tester. This means I play test games and get paid for it. I'm super stoked and I start with orientation this Thursday and training Friday. Huzzah!
Other then that I'm bored.
I also got an awesome toy, special delivery, from San Fran via PE. Annnd a huge bag of deformed Jelly Belly jelly beans.... Read More
Why do I sabatoge myself at the end of every relationship? I get crazy. Say random, unecessarily rude shit. My imagination coupled with jealousy rages out of control and I just make it easier for the other person to distance themselves from me when it's really not what I want at all. One minute I'm fine and the other I'm Dr. Asshole, here to penetrate... Read More
Anybody want to pay me to clean their yard? Who am I kidding. Nobody has a yard
Will clean for money.
Some day, I hope to not be so crazy and confused. Some day, I'll be able to make somebody happy.
Don't leave room for doubt. The ones you love should know how much. Honor and respect their love and you won't be lonely. Disregard... Read More
So I called Blizzard Entertainment back today. I sent them my resume not too long ago. I was applying for an opening in their cinematic FX team (if you've played any of their games you'd know how awesome their cinematic sequences are), or possibly a render watcher position. One thing's for sure is that my focus is regained. It's not in the bag yet, but... Read More
So I'm still yet to do any sort of real update in here. I just don't feel like it really. Things are just...weird. And I feel weird all the time. And I'm sad. And lonely. Guess I'll do some spring cleaning today or something to keep the brain occupied.
Sometimes I feel like I'm the eye in the center of this maelstrom of shit that's whipping along all around me, and try as I may to reach out and influence beyond my boundries, everything just moves out of reach. Because I am the eye. The X factor. All I can do is care about myself for everything else is beyond my reach of influence.... Read More
In a whammy decision yesterday, I was layed off. This month just gets better and better.
So I got my final paycheck ($1800 + taxes = $1400) and my severance pay ($1250 + taxes = $750 :\) so I have about 2200 to live off of, but rent's due so there's about 1/2 of that. Short story, I have to find a job ASAP. Luckily... Read More
i'm glad he makes you smile, it's a good thing.