My name is Darien Fawkes
They call me "Furious D"
And I'm the baddest secret agent that you never did see
The Man turned me invisible
Now, I be miserable
You mess with my hair and I'm bound to get physical
I was locked down and lookin' at at life
Four walls and a guy named "Butch" for a wife
Then my brother (undercover)
Said...
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They call me "Furious D"
And I'm the baddest secret agent that you never did see
The Man turned me invisible
Now, I be miserable
You mess with my hair and I'm bound to get physical
I was locked down and lookin' at at life
Four walls and a guy named "Butch" for a wife
Then my brother (undercover)
Said...
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Okay, I'm off for Hawaii for a week and a half. I KNOW I'm going to go through withdrawls while away from my computer... Take care everybody. 
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adny:
Aloha hooey!
have fun with the kiddies, hope you meet a lovely hula gal
have fun with the kiddies, hope you meet a lovely hula gal
adny:
Gettin' in any hula skirt yet?
Time to update I guess. Been way depressed for the past week plus... Everyone's been telling me to cut and run. Probably should... but I don't want to. This week has been especially painful. She's up in Vancouver all week for a business sales conference. But the 'boyfriend' lives up there too, so I know what She's doing with Her spare time. Ugh. Went to...
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adny:
Thanks for your comments. I get fired up when I see those warmongers act like they know what's best for us. What planet was that, mate?
Sorry you're life sucks right now. My fiancee walked about six months ago for someone else. Getting back into dating is weird...
I see your an Amelie fan. That movie RAWKS!
It's just so... hopeful
Sorry you're life sucks right now. My fiancee walked about six months ago for someone else. Getting back into dating is weird...
I see your an Amelie fan. That movie RAWKS!
It's just so... hopeful
karaokejihad:
i keep seeing you on the boards, just wanted to drop by and say you're cool.
don't let the chicks get you down.
[Edited on Aug 30, 2004 2:23PM]
don't let the chicks get you down.
[Edited on Aug 30, 2004 2:23PM]
So Saturday night we met at Her place, the one She was moving from the next day. It's beautiful there, up in the hills on San Rafael in the Marin area. We went to dinner at a fantastic little Italian place in Fairfax.. She's a vegetarian, so it's tough to find places we both really like sometimes. So we were waiting just inside the door,...
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dravenraine:
Thank you so much for all the info!!! It was so sweet of you to do that. Its been forever since I have been on a plane so of course I am nervous and I didn't know what I could take and stuff. You answered many of my questions, so thank you VERY much 
Oh and btw... do you think it would be a problem if I took some vinyl bondage tape? I wasn't sure if they would let me have that or not. 
Oh and btw... do you think it would be a problem if I took some vinyl bondage tape? I wasn't sure if they would let me have that or not.
dravenraine:
LOL thank you Yep thats about the only things I was worried about taking. Everything else is just clothes and shoes and makeup ANd yeah it will be one hell of a trip!!! hehhehe It drives me crazy being away from him but then when I see him....OoOoOOoOo SO MUCH FUN! Thanks again for all your help
Yep thats about the only things I was worried about taking. Everything else is just clothes and shoes and makeup ANd yeah it will be one hell of a trip!!! hehhehe It drives me crazy being away from him but then when I see him....OoOoOOoOo SO MUCH FUN! Thanks again for all your help Gotta get ready to leave soon, heading across the bay to Her place. We're goin to the Peek-a-boo burlesque show (featuring Tigerlilly and Bliss) tonight and having dinner. I gotta remember not to drink too much. The martini-courage just gets me into trouble. More friends are telling me to cut off all contact with Her, as I'm unable to date because of my feelings for...
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Another night, another dream of Her. She was leaving town soon, so I rushed to the airport to suprise her and say good bye. I'm running through the terminal (luckily the security is not as strict in the dreaming) and I see her sitting with 2 others at the gate. I run up and sit next to her, and she looks over, not really suprised...
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ayurvedium:
millennium+firefly=sg friends.
xoxox
xoxox
cureelise:
I missed the chance to see what u wear under your kilt. 
I missed the chance to see what u wear under your kilt. "Yes, I now feel that it was then on that evening of sweet dreams- that the very first dawn of human love burst upon the icy night of my spirit. Since that period I have never seen nor heard your name without a shiver half of delight, half of anxiety."
For some stupid reason I sent Her this quote today. I'm afraid to hear her...
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Aagh! I just talked to her again. I'm going nuts over this. I KNOW I need to just be a supportive friend, or cut all ties. But I'm so afraid that I'm going to have to do the latter that I'm holding on for dear life. If I stay as the friend, I have to silence the actual supportive friends thoughts of "you could do...
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contradiction:
dude, if she did that, you need to totally talk to her about her feelings for you. You don't tell someone about a sex dream unless:
a) you like them and want them to know it or
b) you know somebody likes you and you want to see them squirm.
Either way, you kinda need to know, eh?
a) you like them and want them to know it or
b) you know somebody likes you and you want to see them squirm.
Either way, you kinda need to know, eh?
thisiswhoweare:
You don't tell someone about a sex dream unless:
a) you like them and want them to know it or
b) you know somebody likes you and you want to see them squirm.Either way, you kinda need to know, eh?
Yeah, I know you're right. If you had a sex dream about a friend, one you weren't into, would you tell them? Probably not... But what if it's (B)? I can't see her wanting to screw with me intentionally... but then again, I'm absolutely cluless as to the intentions of women anymore. My other friends are taking me out this weekend to try to get me "out there". I just keep thinking about HER at the most inappropriate times. Like when someone else is trying to flirt with me so I'm oblivious. My friends have to point it out on the drive home what what girls were trying to do... Makes me feel like a 'tard.
a) you like them and want them to know it or
b) you know somebody likes you and you want to see them squirm.Either way, you kinda need to know, eh?
Yeah, I know you're right. If you had a sex dream about a friend, one you weren't into, would you tell them? Probably not... But what if it's (B)? I can't see her wanting to screw with me intentionally... but then again, I'm absolutely cluless as to the intentions of women anymore. My other friends are taking me out this weekend to try to get me "out there". I just keep thinking about HER at the most inappropriate times. Like when someone else is trying to flirt with me so I'm oblivious. My friends have to point it out on the drive home what what girls were trying to do... Makes me feel like a 'tard.
I'm very sorry about my inability to behave properly around you. I'm also not sure if I'm better at hiding it than I think, but I've GOT to be making an ass of myself. I know you don't need this crap. I don't mean to be spewing it. I thought I'd be okay, I though I could just be happy for you. I found myself...
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mtlqueen:
Don't be that guy... It is so much better to be THAT guy! The one she wants to come over like every day! Whenever. And you don't even have to call first. And then you don't have to leave either. That's the kind of guy you are... but not to her... so don't be. Let her go and find someone with less restrictions! (Can you tell I was divorced before 30? Remarried before 30?) I am a believer, baby. Trust me. I can see from your words you are too... It should be so much easier... Just my 2 cents, hope I haven't been too forthcoming, but you put a lot into that journal entry and it seems trite to just write, "Dude. 
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contradiction:
thanks for the ideas...I forgot about "lover" and "partner/life partner", and "mate". And you were right about why they all suck. But it's funny.
As far as the girl goes...all you can do is be there for and care about her with no expectations, or you can walk away. Unfortunately, telling people how you really feel doesn't work a lot of the time - I have learned this very often lately with my guy, sometimes ya just gotta pick your battles cuz people don't hear you the way that you hear yourself. You can't speak feelings, and words are notoriously problematic. If you tell her the guy she is with sucks and she could do better, she is going to think you are saying she can't make proper decisions for herself. If you ask her to make some kind of decision regarding whether or not she wants to be with you ever, she is going to feel uncomfortable and pick the easiest exit (aka walking away). I would either wait it out, be her friend, no expectations (this sometimes turns into so much more) or just cut your losses and find a girl who knows you are the shit.
As far as the girl goes...all you can do is be there for and care about her with no expectations, or you can walk away. Unfortunately, telling people how you really feel doesn't work a lot of the time - I have learned this very often lately with my guy, sometimes ya just gotta pick your battles cuz people don't hear you the way that you hear yourself. You can't speak feelings, and words are notoriously problematic. If you tell her the guy she is with sucks and she could do better, she is going to think you are saying she can't make proper decisions for herself. If you ask her to make some kind of decision regarding whether or not she wants to be with you ever, she is going to feel uncomfortable and pick the easiest exit (aka walking away). I would either wait it out, be her friend, no expectations (this sometimes turns into so much more) or just cut your losses and find a girl who knows you are the shit.
And now I'm in Orange County. We must have been part of the same exchange program.