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So, I am moving to Tempe in with Amory. The date of which I move is yet to be announced, because it is riding on whether Dace and I are going to the Salt River or not. Honestly, I am so exhausted from thinking about this whole mess, I just want to skip the river and move my things up there and get it over with.

I'm going to miss Dace so much though. Thinking about it right now makes me teary eyed. I'm not quite sure I know how to cut myself off from emotion. That's what I am. A huge ball of emotion, sexual energy, and complexity. I don't want him to see me cry though. Why? I'm not sure. I usually could give two shits less who's around, but for some reason I feel I need to be strong. He wants me to stay which is what makes it harder. But I am doing what I feel is best for me right now. I refuse to change my mind. Although the offers being thrown in my face, left and fucking right are insane and awesome. I have like 4 possible other choices besides moving to Tempe, but those are all choices that keep me in Tucson, and unforunately, Tucson is not where I feel I belong right now. Perhaps later.

I need to get my cat shots before we leave. I need to return my cable modem. I need to return my mothers video tapes, and pick up 40 dollars for gas. I need to finish packing.

I hope I don't starve while I am up there. I am really nervous. But I am a tough fuckin' cookie, so I should be ok.