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So I've managed to let free, and stay up here in Phoenix for a while. (Mesa rather). It's wierd. Usually letting go of some reponsibilitys are considered irresponsible (fancy that!)...but I think this was all supposed to happen. I've already learned a lot just in the past week. I feel like a lot that has been weighing me down, has been lifted off of my mind and body, and that I am back to the mind-set of accomplishing everything I want. No one knows where I'm at, or how long I will be gone...but I guess if they worry about it too much, then they really don't know me at all. I'm 100 miles away from what FELT like stability and shelter...and yet I feel just by almost being a gypsy, I have found a new stability and security...and shelter.

I did something a few days ago that I never thought I would do, and now that I have done it, I feel like I would never be me, to my fullest potential, had I not done it. It was incredible for lack of a better word, and perhaps it's just the type of person I am, but I feel like that experience was a huge part of my life now. I had many epiphanys that night, and everything became a little more clear to me.

While having this experience, I called Vanessa out of the blue, and told her that I love her very much, and that she has a clean slate with me...and that nothing ever is going to change the fact that I will be there for her always. It was a tad bit sappy and emotional, but I was happy not sad. And it felt good to make her feel good, because I know she needs a little positiveness in her life, with everything going on. So...yeah.

I finally met Paige. I didn't recognize her at first when I met her, because we met under different circumstances than the SG tour...but I realized it was her, and it was cool. She's nice, and gave me a lot of tips about re-applying for SG and whatnot.

I'm in love with Ian.