ok................
so, i'll hpoefully being drinking soon! this is a plus. i'm lisoning to the new Zao! yay!! BUT it's not working NOW! (fuck). i just got off work, i got out of the ugly pants and into the tight one's. i'm going to eat and then drink.
but i'm writeing now b/c i have so much shit on my mind! so i'll just start...
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so, i'll hpoefully being drinking soon! this is a plus. i'm lisoning to the new Zao! yay!! BUT it's not working NOW! (fuck). i just got off work, i got out of the ugly pants and into the tight one's. i'm going to eat and then drink.
but i'm writeing now b/c i have so much shit on my mind! so i'll just start...
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That night I never came home
Wandering souls captured my thoughts
Emptiness filled my mind
Urgency spoke her lies
In the confines of these grey walls
I watched them move together
Taking me places I cannot remember
We have been poured out
Into a loveless bride
How quickly I forget, that this is meaningless
In a world passing through my fingers
I still chase the...
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Wandering souls captured my thoughts
Emptiness filled my mind
Urgency spoke her lies
In the confines of these grey walls
I watched them move together
Taking me places I cannot remember
We have been poured out
Into a loveless bride
How quickly I forget, that this is meaningless
In a world passing through my fingers
I still chase the...
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daniofthedead:
i meant your previous entry had things like 'B4" and other things that arent easy to read haha.
lynnailove:
I like this.
ok.
this go's out too all the ppl that look at this. all like three of you.
life is quite new. it's feeling worm, much briter than b4. 4 the 1st time i can almost see things cleally. i can see all the things i need 2 stop, all the things that need improvement.
i'm ejoiying life right now, i haven't in so long.....so long...
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this go's out too all the ppl that look at this. all like three of you.
life is quite new. it's feeling worm, much briter than b4. 4 the 1st time i can almost see things cleally. i can see all the things i need 2 stop, all the things that need improvement.
i'm ejoiying life right now, i haven't in so long.....so long...
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glassheart:
i was thinking about calling you and seeing how you were doing. Youve been on my mind a lot lately.
Glad to see you are doing better.
Glad to see you are doing better.
daniofthedead:
all i can say is i wish youd type things out a little more..........understandable for me ha.
keep your chin up, you'll be fine
keep your chin up, you'll be fine
alive
hey God, why are you doing this to me?
am i not living up to what i'm supposed to be?
why am i seething with this animosity?
hey God, i think you owe me a great big apology
Terrible Lie
Hey God, I really don't know what you mean.
Seems like salvation comes only in our dreams.
I feel my hatred grow all the...
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hey God, why are you doing this to me?
am i not living up to what i'm supposed to be?
why am i seething with this animosity?
hey God, i think you owe me a great big apology
Terrible Lie
Hey God, I really don't know what you mean.
Seems like salvation comes only in our dreams.
I feel my hatred grow all the...
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glassheart:
hey. Im ok. thanks for the concern. I have just been so happy and in good spirits lately, that one bad day really hit me hard. Thank you for still caring. Ok. Im going to go pack for my trip and cry my head off. Im sure one of those will do me good.
Tonight, angela and I went through the marc box. We both cried. It made me sad to realize that I have been mainly remembering the bad times, when we had so many good ones. Its a good thing I have so many reminders.
love you for always.
p.s.- I hope everything works out for you and Siren4. Yes, that was the heartbreaking news I got today. I hope she's not a "dip-shit" and treats you well. You deserve it.
Tonight, angela and I went through the marc box. We both cried. It made me sad to realize that I have been mainly remembering the bad times, when we had so many good ones. Its a good thing I have so many reminders.
love you for always.
p.s.- I hope everything works out for you and Siren4. Yes, that was the heartbreaking news I got today. I hope she's not a "dip-shit" and treats you well. You deserve it.
thetrooper:
At The End of August
So I lit lanterns,
to light up all these words,
looking back I know
it's what I'd die for.
And through all of this life,
smashed away all the strife,
a friendship I paint, untouchable.
Crawling from the floor,
I've been there before.
There I was staring
back at the bottom.
Let's just make this clear,
it came from these tears.
Carved across our chest, loyalty.
And with the new light,
there was young hope.
To underline the meaning,
and carve our names in.
At the end of August, the end of...
At the end of August, the end of...
I'll never replace the ones I first made, Jesus, does anyone?
So I lit lanterns,
to light up all these words,
looking back I know
it's what I'd die for.
And through all of this life,
smashed away all the strife,
a friendship I paint, untouchable.
And with the new light,
there was young hope.
To underline the meaning,
and carve our names in.
At the end of August, the end of...
At the end of August, the end of...
I'll never replace the ones I first made, Jesus, does anyone?
Crawling from the floor,
I've been there before.
It's biggest fear, loyalty.
And I want you to know
how all of you made me,
how all of you saved me and...
I'll never replace the ones I first made, Jesus, does anyone?
At the end of August, the end of...
At the end of August, the end of...
I'll never replace the ones I first made, Jesus, does anyone?
Crawling from the floor,
I've been there before.
There I was staring
back at the bottom.
Let's just make this clear,
it came from these tears.
Carved across our chest, loyalty.
loyalty! loyal!
So I lit lanterns,
to light up all these words,
looking back I know
it's what I'd die for.
And through all of this life,
smashed away all the strife,
a friendship I paint, untouchable.
Crawling from the floor,
I've been there before.
There I was staring
back at the bottom.
Let's just make this clear,
it came from these tears.
Carved across our chest, loyalty.
And with the new light,
there was young hope.
To underline the meaning,
and carve our names in.
At the end of August, the end of...
At the end of August, the end of...
I'll never replace the ones I first made, Jesus, does anyone?
So I lit lanterns,
to light up all these words,
looking back I know
it's what I'd die for.
And through all of this life,
smashed away all the strife,
a friendship I paint, untouchable.
And with the new light,
there was young hope.
To underline the meaning,
and carve our names in.
At the end of August, the end of...
At the end of August, the end of...
I'll never replace the ones I first made, Jesus, does anyone?
Crawling from the floor,
I've been there before.
It's biggest fear, loyalty.
And I want you to know
how all of you made me,
how all of you saved me and...
I'll never replace the ones I first made, Jesus, does anyone?
At the end of August, the end of...
At the end of August, the end of...
I'll never replace the ones I first made, Jesus, does anyone?
Crawling from the floor,
I've been there before.
There I was staring
back at the bottom.
Let's just make this clear,
it came from these tears.
Carved across our chest, loyalty.
loyalty! loyal!
i'm going 2 kill myself 2night.
asrai:
don't do that.
i'm just moving on with my life... maybe taking my nakedness elsewhere.
i'll be on myspace still, if you have that. myspace.com/asraisuicide
take care
i'm just moving on with my life... maybe taking my nakedness elsewhere.
i'll be on myspace still, if you have that. myspace.com/asraisuicide
take care
magick:
dude. 
my brakes went out on 280 the other night. i could have died! i could have lost my life in a flash. i could have beed take'n from you all, could have been gone... *4always* i hate my fucking life
it's wasn't even a stupid thing i was doing. someone is trying 2 tell me something. i found peace of mind. and it's the best...
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it's wasn't even a stupid thing i was doing. someone is trying 2 tell me something. i found peace of mind. and it's the best...
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thetrooper:
It's been a long dark road
But I remember when
It meant the world to me
It's been a long dark day
And a cold black night
And it still gets hard to see
Cause they don't know me
And they never will
It's been a long dark road
I still remember why
It took so much out of me
It's a shallow pond
We're swimming in
And it makes it hard to breathe
Cause they don't know Me
And they never will
No they don't know why
Or how it feels to live
It's been a long dark road
And I remember skies
That weren't so hard...to see
It's been a long dark day
And I remember nights
That made me Me
Cause they don't know me
And they never will
And they don't know why
Or how it feels to live
*humming outro*
But I remember when
It meant the world to me
It's been a long dark day
And a cold black night
And it still gets hard to see
Cause they don't know me
And they never will
It's been a long dark road
I still remember why
It took so much out of me
It's a shallow pond
We're swimming in
And it makes it hard to breathe
Cause they don't know Me
And they never will
No they don't know why
Or how it feels to live
It's been a long dark road
And I remember skies
That weren't so hard...to see
It's been a long dark day
And I remember nights
That made me Me
Cause they don't know me
And they never will
And they don't know why
Or how it feels to live
*humming outro*
immolate:
At least it wasn't 101
i'm not going to drink anymore. i'm done. i'm done hurting myself.
i love you.
may the hours not turn into years.
goodnight
i love you.
may the hours not turn into years.
goodnight
i love ozzy!! b/c of him i'm what i am. A FUCKING METAL HEAD!
note to self: i'm sorry i lost you for a long time.
p.s. Sabbath tat tomorrow
didn't get it, mabye 2morrow
I am still loving you, after all we went through.
I am still needing you, after all we've been through.
I am still hearing you..telling me not to.
I am...
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note to self: i'm sorry i lost you for a long time.
p.s. Sabbath tat tomorrow
didn't get it, mabye 2morrow
I am still loving you, after all we went through.
I am still needing you, after all we've been through.
I am still hearing you..telling me not to.
I am...
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glassheart:
yea, that used to be you, but then you started to get drunk all the time like a retarded bastard. Why dont you go drink yourself stupid, huh? or have you already done that?
you probably have.
you have no heart.
you probably have.
you have no heart.
glassheart:
i love you too, but this cry for attention is rediculous.
YOU told me to start dating him. YOU said you were ready.
YOU told me to start dating him. YOU said you were ready.
Now that I
Face the world with pain inside
Strange but I
Can't understand the reasons why.
Forever is
A world that I cannot describe
That Died the time we said goodnight.
It makes no difference, wrong or right
The time has come to say goodnight.
And how could I
Be so sure but be so wrong?
And how could I?
Have a will so...
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Face the world with pain inside
Strange but I
Can't understand the reasons why.
Forever is
A world that I cannot describe
That Died the time we said goodnight.
It makes no difference, wrong or right
The time has come to say goodnight.
And how could I
Be so sure but be so wrong?
And how could I?
Have a will so...
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this was going 2 be a night of fun. and then i saw you.
i really can't fucking deal with this shit.
i'm suck wishing you were "mine"
Gave Up
perfect little dream the kind that hurts the most
forgot how it feels well almost
no one to blame always the same
open my eyes wake up in flames
it took you to make me...
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i really can't fucking deal with this shit.
i'm suck wishing you were "mine"
Gave Up
perfect little dream the kind that hurts the most
forgot how it feels well almost
no one to blame always the same
open my eyes wake up in flames
it took you to make me...
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daniofthedead:
yeah its hard now, but believe me, it gets much much much easier. gotta pick the pieces up and move right along. i experienced the same situation as well.
asrai:
i'm sorry you didn't have a good night
*hugs*
i'm sorry you didn't have a good night
*hugs*
What do you wanna do now baby?
should we take the day...
...maybe go to the beach?
What do you want me to say now baby,
I may be gone... but never out of reach.
Ooh, baby blue.
Ooh...
Why?
"Relax, turn around and take my hand." please
should we take the day...
...maybe go to the beach?
What do you want me to say now baby,
I may be gone... but never out of reach.
Ooh, baby blue.
Ooh...
Why?
"Relax, turn around and take my hand." please
thetrooper:
i hate life
daniofthedead:
yes my whole weekend was pretty intense..... why the hating on life, new friend
i hate my life right now. i hate having you so far away loving someone else. i hate how i hate all this shit about you. i hate myself.
i'm just not doing well with what i've put my self though.
i'm doing all the things i never did. they are just as empty as i knew they would be and it hurts to know...
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i'm just not doing well with what i've put my self though.
i'm doing all the things i never did. they are just as empty as i knew they would be and it hurts to know...
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sweetiyvie:
Aw hun.......a broken heart is the worst feeling in the world. I have had a few too many myself. (3) Ugh. Nothing will take the pain away, and you feel like 
everyday for what seems like forever.
Then one day you will laugh, a real heartfelt laugh...and your pain will ease just a bit. But that first laugh is like a worm eating all the muck away, the cloud will lift and your burden will lighten with each passing day.
Just give yourself time, May take months..even longer. My last heartbreak took me 3/4 years to heal, allthough the hardest part lasted about 9 months.
Be patient and know that one day, even though it may seem so unreal now, you will be back to your old self again.
everyday for what seems like forever.
Then one day you will laugh, a real heartfelt laugh...and your pain will ease just a bit. But that first laugh is like a worm eating all the muck away, the cloud will lift and your burden will lighten with each passing day.
Just give yourself time, May take months..even longer. My last heartbreak took me 3/4 years to heal, allthough the hardest part lasted about 9 months.
Be patient and know that one day, even though it may seem so unreal now, you will be back to your old self again.
glassheart:
i thought about you on the 27th as well.
You can come here, or ill come over there. With the holidays, Ill be in town a lot. Let me know.
and, Im glad to see you are writing. Its good to hear those thoughts of yours.
My sister comes in on friday, so Ill be in town all next week and such. I would call you, but I cant talk right now. Sorry.