Sunday Aug 14, 2005

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Boring day. Nothing happened. Work was lonely, slow, and suitably productive.

I have to work a double shift tomorrow... open to close. I have to rest up.
user209834982:
kiss kiss miao!!

Saturday Aug 13, 2005

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Wow. Today was a rough day at work. The bar was out of beer. The kitchen was out of food. There were maggots in the trash area. And customers were running around in the staff area. Everyone was mad at everyone. But me and my steadfast compatriot, Zac, kept good humour throughout the whole night. (Even when Zac ate a bad chicken wing and had...
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Friday Aug 12, 2005

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So tired recently....

I've been staying up late again. Eating after midnight. Wasting my, uh, precious bodily fluids instead of saving my energy.

I was happier whilst I was discplined, so why can't I stay on the path?
gingersnaps_____:
awwwww, thanks hunny, your post was so sweet! smile

kiss

Tuesday Aug 09, 2005

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I tried to wake up at 12 today. And I usually can if I've been drinking the night before.
But then I went back to sleep and had this dream...

I don't get "subway dreams" very often anymore.
But "subway dreams" have special significance to me

whats a subway dream

Well, technically, it's just a dream involving a subway/subway tunnels/perhaps other forms of transit.
Most...
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Wednesday Jul 27, 2005

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Tonight... D&D night... my cat-oriented sorceror (who just so happens to have a cat as a familiar) just hit 3rd level and got Lightning Reflexes (a choice made after getting literally killed by a magic lightning trap,) and the Feather Fall spell (in response to a nearly unfortunate repelling accident. Haha.) Two very cat-like abilities... this character and his development are turning out awesome! (Even...
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Tuesday Jul 26, 2005

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Damn it. I'm so freaking depressed.

I bought a new book, Sophie's World. I'm looking forward to it.

But right now, I'm really hating on my desire for the opposite sex. I'd rather not know girls exist right now. It's just getting me down way too much. Reading, working, drinking, none of it gets my mind off it. What I need is some other kind...
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nataleigh:
first off, Sophie's World is a really good book as long as you dig philosophy on some level.

secondly, i am really glad that you will not resort back to your old ways. that shows how much you have grown up and also hwo much you have taken control of your life adn your depression. some ppl think that when they cut themselves, that means they are in control. i don't believe that's true. it takes way more strength to not cut yourself than it does to do so.

congrats for that. and when you decide to stop hatign girls, we should go for that drink we talked about and we can talk abotu Sophie's World and be all cool. lol.
nataleigh:
lol. alright sounds good. i am in the city every week for at least 2-3 nights, but at this point in time i have no funds. so once i get more money and can afford to pay for my own drinks, we will go for sure. that should hopefully be in the next 2-3 weeks at the latest. smile

Monday Jul 18, 2005

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k, I really haven't posted in a while. This happens from time to time. There's just nothing to say.

Oh, I got an air conditioner. Whoop-whoop.

Should I do psilocybin tonight? [Y/N] tongue

Tuesday Jul 12, 2005

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One of the bartenders had her 30th birthday last night.

It was a blast.

P.S. Drugs are bad. Don't do drugs. At least, don't do the stupid drugs... especially if they're expensive, too.

Sunday Jul 10, 2005

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Ughhhh, fasting again this weekend.

Beer and scotch last night. Wham.

Nobody wuuuuuuvs meeeeeeeee... haha. blackeyed

Thursday Jul 07, 2005

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After the weekend fasting... I went all debaucherous Monday and Tuesday. Gotta focus... gotta discipline myself. Argh.

Gotta wake up before noon.

I don't feel like writing anything else.

Thursday Jul 07, 2005

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I think I'm losing my mind.

Backlash from having too much of it, I guess.
nataleigh:
you're not losing it, but i think your mind likes to go on vacation everyonce in a while. but it will come back.

Monday Jul 04, 2005

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Well, I continued my fast into the next day. It's now been over 48 hours since I've had I meal. This feels kind of like being high. I drank a couple energy drinks last night. Probably not good for my body on an empty stomach, but it made me feel great while getting out of work.

By the way, if anyone's paid any attention to...
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zwiebel:
what the fuck dude?
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