tequilaraymax

Great gig last night. Get Tony to book you again soon; I'm tired of listening to shite metal on a Saturday night in The Duke.

got your email. don't quite know what to say about all that yet.

as for this-here post. good shit.

man,
i'm so through with white girls.

so what happened to you with the killer?

I'm not through with white girls yet. Thanks for your story in IamSick's journal, Max.

sounds like a fun night ahead of you. i'm getting a keyboard shortly. an actual keyboard. a working keyboard. will be arranging again. composing. the thoughts in yon brain burn like fire. i am exicted.

all my crushes have completely and utterly crushed me back.

that qualifies as "feed me your heart" material.

i'd like to know more about that, but you're probably not comfortable talking about it.

meanwhile:
i owe you candy.

thanks for the comments, really.

most times i just write and its a sort of take it or leave it attitude. this i wanted something particular. i need to need to know what this makes people feel because i want them to feel something very specific. so it helps, and i take no critiscm poorly, it enlivens me.

as for medicine, yeah, some people need it and some don't just like some drugs do what they're supposed to and some don't. best of luck to you in that field.

"what bargains we have made, we have kept.
and as the dogs of the hour close in
nothing can be taken from us
but our lives."
-bukowski, "victory"

i had one of those not too long ago. but i was very lucky, the scars are healing and there is no permanant damage done.

what the fuck happened to you?

i just realized you like the gun club. someone needs to burn me everything they ever recorded. i only have one album. the world is a cruel place, if only due to this fact.

After my "back atcha" wink, I read your entry.

Dude, this is exactly what I'm going through. I'm either extremely happy with life and not wanting to change a thing, or I'm so miserable I don't have the energy to change anything. I've recently sold all my belongings and I'll be leaving soon to travel around America. I've found some odd jobs in Florida as post-hurricane clean-up and a blueberry farmhand. I'm scared to death, but hopefully it'll change my outlook on things a little. I'm only worried about my friendships I have here... I really love my friends, but I'm terrible at keeping in touch. Woah...how'd you do that? You just got me to pour my heart out. My instict now is to erase all this, but then I'd have just wasted the last few minutes.

Yeah, it sounds like you should get the hell out of there. If your only reason for staying is your music, and you're miserable in every other aspect, how do you know you wouldn't be making better music somewhere where you're not miserable?

Licking Chocolate Jesus rock. I love 'em.

hot damn! best journal post ever. that's going into a story somewhere. or a fucked up poem. yes... fucked up poems are great for shit like that. less random, but i recently was told by a girl i hardly know about the first time she took on two guys at a party and can't remember either of their names.

yeah shit like this i never doubt, because its almost impossible to make it up. i think i remember that part in brave new world. dialogue is always hard to writer, mostly because since you're writing it you think it sounds phoney, because it sounds phoney to you, usually other people don't think its phoney. cause they didn't have to make it up. its great when i write a scene with multiply people if i can actually write it in such a way that you know who said what without me haaing to tell youi, just by whats said and in what order. that's always fun.

nice to hear everyone on the other side of pond is having as much fun as i am. forget you knew yon girl. forget you knew everyone. break for the wilderness, eat nuts and buries and eats what you kill, kills what you eat.

simple as that.

but then again,
that is my advice to everything.

i slipped onoffon back into rotation. it did not grow. it did not even bud. there were a few that left me apathetic as opposed to outright annoyed. i will try again but today the only album that matters is the replacement's "let it be". i've decided it is the perfect rocknroll album. clearly.

thanks for commentary on poetry.

yeah i wound up digging the miniwatt stuff. i'll have to look into that band further. as for dellio, i'll try givng the one you recommended a shot.

i downloaded that miniwatt...good shit.

I don't know where i got the gang of four from...maybe because everyone else is ripping them off?

You would love the shit out of Lightning Bolt, though.

Check out Load Records...they have a lot of decent stuff.